Float - Maia Rowan (NPR Tiny Desk Submission)

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My mom has cancer and I wrote this song about people's reactions to that.

Float
Maia Rowan
I wish that you’d just leave me in my haze
If I wanted something, I probably wouldn’t say
Actually I’d say I’d ask for help, but I wouldn’t ask you
Because I don’t want you to see me crying

But if you see me crying, say something
Or better yet, don’t say nothing
Because if you did, I’d have to say something back
That’s what you’re supposed to do,
But then I wouldn’t feel like me, and you wouldn’t feel like you.

Hyper reality
I hate humanity
Yes it’s a hard thing to go through at such a young age
You don’t have to tell me again and again
Why don’t you just let me float
Away

I wish you knew that I never want to talk about mom or about cancer
I wish you could feel the balloon pop and my heart drop
Out of the clouds all the way back down to reality
And I hate it when you ask me how she is
There’s no words that are adequate
Bad is dead and good is a spectrum

But if you see me dying, say something
Or better yet, don’t say nothing
Because if you did, I’d have to say something back
That’s what you’re supposed to do,
But then I wouldn’t feel like me, and you wouldn’t feel like you.

Hyper reality
I hate humanity
Yes it’s a hard thing to go through at such a young age
You don’t have to tell me again and again
Why don’t you just let me float
Away


And if you want to know why I didn’t call for 4 months, here’s why
It’s because you made me cry, you made me cry.
And I knew it was unlikely to happen a second time
But I just couldn’t shake the association between you and crying for a while.

Hyper reality
I hate humanity
Yes it’s a hard thing to go through at such a young age
You don’t have to tell me again and again
Why don’t you just let me float
Away


Hyper reality
I hate this mentality
Everything’s too real or not real enough
It’s scary if I think about it too much
Why don’t you just let me float away