Sensing, Feeling, Falling

Описание: Sensing, Feeling, Falling ─ AJ du Toit ©

I trace the shape
of your absence
in spaces that still remember
your laughter
Silence sits
where you once stood
while time
unlearns your name

I carry you
inside my chest
like shatter glass
beneath the skin
Heavy with edges
of what we were
cutting deeper
every breath
The watch of my heart
spins wild
its arms trembling
in the dark
spinning towards time together
that can no longer be

I water the garden
of maybes
with quiet
late-night tears
waiting for somethings
that refuse
to be

Sensing…
Feeling…
Falling again
through echoes
of your name
Broken soul
shattered heart
your shadow
shards in my lungs
And this spikey heart
inside my chest
Penetrates further
with every breath

Fragile glass cracks
inside my chest
Cutting flesh
slashing raw feelings
Now every breath
feels like an outcry
A battle
I never chose
I burned for you
a silent flame
in the darkness
that fell my way
waiting for a flashing light
revealing ghost edges of your shape


Each morning
I pull your name
from the shattered pieces
from my heart
yet every night
it returns
dream after dream

Sensing…
Feeling…
Falling again
through echoes
of your name
Broken soul
shattered heart
your shadow
in my lungs
This bleeding heart
rambling inside my chest
Severs hope painfully
with every breath

I beg the sky
for answers
but heaven
stays silent
Goodbye is chasing
an asymptote
Pain stretching
toward infinity
always close
but never ending

I gather
the shattered pieces
of who I was
like broken glass
in my hands
But somewhere
in the fractures
a small light remains
Even broken things
can help me reflect

Sensing…
Feeling…
Falling again
through the ruins
of our past
Broken soul
burning heart
still beating
in the dark
And these pieces
inside my chest
may eventually
bring flickers
and reflect some light

I trace the shape
of your absence
until silence
finally
lets you go