This is What it Looks Like When I'm Trying My Best (a song for my misunderstood friends)

Описание: They don't see how hard you're trying, but I do ♥

THIS IS WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE WHEN I'M TRYING MY BEST

VERSE 1
I was born to burrow deep beneath the surface
But you only measure how high I fly
Fundamentally misunderstand my purpose
To my efforts you have turned a blind eye
I'm an active mind that's full of bright ideas
Most of which will make me fall on my face
I'm a heart that's full of love but all you see is
Just a fool who must be put in his place
I don't live the way you do
Love the way you want me to
But you'll never let me tell you the truth:

CHORUS
This is what it looks like when I'm trying my best
This is what it looks like when I run without rest
And I know it's not a lot
But it's everything I've got
This is how it turns out when I give it my all
You tell me I won't live up to my potential
"You're not trying hard enough"
"When are you gonna grow up?"
"Would you stop making excuses for yourself?"
That's the last I'll ever ask for your help.

VERSE 2
Now I hide inside my bedroom with my door shut
Headphones on, with angry songs in my ear
And the book I'm reading helps me to ignore it
All the hate, the shame, the angst, and the fear
When you knock, I act like I can't even hear you
Tell me come on out, 'cause dinner's ready
And I'm hungry as a wolf, but I'd prefer to
Starve alone than eat with my family
There's no love inside this place
Only guilt instead of grace
But you'll never let me tell you the truth:

CHORUS
This is what it looks like when I'm trying my best
This is what it looks like when I run without rest
And I know it's not a lot
But it's everything I've got
This is how it turns out when I give it my all
You tell me I won't live up to my potential
"You're not trying hard enough"
"When are you gonna grow up?"
"Would you stop making excuses for yourself?"
That's the last I'll ever ask for your help.

BRIDGE
If my efforts aren't enough
Then perhaps I'll just give up

CHORUS
This is what it looks like when I'm trying my best
This is what it looks like when I run without rest
And I know it's not a lot
But it's everything I've got
This is how it turns out when I give it my all
You tell me I won't live up to my potential
"You're not trying hard enough"
"When are you gonna grow up?"
"Would you stop making excuses for yourself?"
That's the last I'll ever ask for your help.

CODA
If my efforts aren't enough
If my efforts aren't enough
Then perhaps I'll just give up

Words, music, production, performance (c)2020 Seth Jordan Music