Burnt Out Former Gifted Kid by Kid Pixie (mostly) full song

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LYRICS
my entire self is built from praise I received in adolescence 
and the every growing fear that I'm just getting less impressive
they told me I was special, never taught me how to not be
i'll flystraight into the sun baby it's to late to stop me 

top of the class to the bottom of the barrel
i'm drowning in the plot of my forever dress rehearsal
had my piece of cake but I can't stomach bread and butter
i take my better self to bed just to hide under the covers

am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a lazy narcissist?
was I always gonna be like this? is it something we could have avoided?
my identity rests on each performance
real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your love and to ignore it
now clap

I retrace my steps follow a trail of perfect scores 
and I'm unsurprised to realize that I've always been this bored
always obsessed with winning, proud of not having to try
imprisoned in perception hate the self I won't apply

I'll do almost anything to avoid being alone
with all that "so much potential" and the half assed seeds I've sown
it's like the opposite of stage fright, a fear still undefined
try to think about it like reading a strangers mind

am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a lazy narcissist?
was I always gonna be like this? is it something we could have avoided?
my identity rests on each performance
real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your love and to ignore it
now clap 

the writings on the fourth wall, the stage is growing fragile
but i need to see you see me or reality unravels
a string of desperate measures, a tangled can’t grow up
i’ll implode if you ignore me, any excuse to self destruct

it's a lonely vain exhibit, a burning house of glass
nothing I do really matters 'til i share it with the class
I had barely learned to tie it before the shoe was dropping
compulsive causing scenes cause i'm not real if you're not watching

am I a burnt out former gifted kid or just a fucking narcissist?
was I always gonna be like this? is it something we could have avoided?
my identity rests on each performance
real is a risk and I can't afford it
I need your love and to ignore it
NOW CLAP