alexandra udinov | pain

Описание: Please watch in 720p. song info at the end of the video :)
Lyndsy saw this video and I'm kind of dead because of it :DD
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MOST. PAINFUL. VIDEO. EVER. Gosh! Just let me vent for a minute; after Saturday's episode, I wanted to vid Alex, but instead of starting a new video I found this old project that was almost done so I thought I'd finish it, but no, vegas was not of the same idea and it just kept on crashing from Saturday morning to like one hour ago, when I finally surrendered, rendered it all in like six different parts, put a few random clips in the wholes that it had in the first verse and at the end and just rendered it however it turned out. Just ough. Somebody should make vegas pay and suffer for how much it tortures vidders. It seriously is the Amanda of the situation. :p

Okay, I'm done xD
ALEXANDRA FREAKIN' UDINOV, ladies and gentlemen, aka basically the best character ever written ;D well maybe not the best but definitely in the top three. I just love the complexity of this character, of all the characters and storylines in this wonderful show really, but I don't know, Alex has just got a special place in my heart. I have said this already but I'll gladly repeat myself, yes, Nikki is so amazing as it gets, but I think what makes Alex more interesting to me is that she has yet to figure out who she really is and what she really wants, whereas Nikita knows exactly who she is. Alex through the first two seasons was driven by the desire of getting revenge for her family, whether it was by destroying Division or just killing Semak, but now she doesn't really have a goal, she's just wandering a little lost (and thank you Sean for helping her so much by pushing her so hard she even relapsed . don't get me started on Mr Pierce whom I honestly just want to strangle this season) and basically she's holding on to her only certainty, Nikita. But I think seeing as even Nikki has her doubts now, Alex is on the edge of breaking down which considering how things are going, will happen very soon. I really really really REALLY do not want to see her go to Amanda, that would break my heart but I'm starting to think that's unavoidable. As of now, she's holding on to Nikita as her anchor but if Nikki will be busy saving Michael or trying to deal with whatever Lady Creepy Torturer With The Fashionable Haircut throws at her, I can see how Amanda could easily snatch Alex away. Le sigh.

And I just have to say this, all the awards to Lyndsy Fonseca. I mean this girl is astonishing, not only she's the most gorgeous human being that I've ever seen, even in those scenes where she's drugged and dirty and without any make up where anyone would look horrible, it's ridiculous how pretty she is, but especially she is such an incredible actress. Most of Alex's scenes are so heartfelt and really hard to portay but she succeeds every single time, seriously, wow. The whole cast is incredible really (Maggie in Rath, don't even get me started).

Anywhatever ;) I love this song, and this whole album actually, and since it is about addiction and fighting with it and through the pain, I have always found this perfect for Alex, especially now, that's why I tried to focus as much as I could on the drug storylines for her, particularly her current relapse. And then vegas went and ruined it all :p And yeah, there is a lot of Alex&Nikita in it. Deal with it. xD

I feel horrible dedicating such an awful video to such wonderful people, but since I don't think I will be able to make many videos for the next like, year or so, I dedicate this to my Nikita ladies (even though both of them prefer Nikita to Alex, sorry about that xD): Flo (   / kaiirel  ) & Tanya (   / themrslondon  . You girls are amazing and you know I love you :')

Ps. I have a lot of exams this next two weeks but I will try to make some more videos from the 10 Ships Challenge during the holidays :)

Voiceovers.
(intro) "Tell me about your pain, Alex. It's the only way to let it go - Maybe I like my pain"
0:15 "Let me go! LET ME GO - Go where?- JUST LET ME DIE!"
0:22 "I wanna be happy. Normal."
0:33 "You feel weak. And you're angry because you feel week. You can use that, Alex"
1:01 "You're always taking care of me" 1:10 "Somebody's got to"