KNOWING IF I WANT TO YET

Описание: #indiefolk #experimentalmusic #emotionalmusic

A song for the part of you that knows, and the part that hasn’t caught up yet.

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Lyrics

I don’t see you at all now
I don’t know what to trust anymore
But my body still keeps a place
That doesn’t know you’re gone

My mind knows the truth already
Knows you’re not coming back
But there’s a part of me that moves
As if the world forgot the rules

I still feel you in the habit
Of the way I move through days
But I’m done asking the future
To give me what it won’t make

I know I’ll never be with you
Not in this life not any way
I’m learning how to heal without
Knowing if I want to yet

I watch that part of me more closely now
I don’t tell it what’s not true
I let it keep a little light
So it doesn’t starve at all

I don’t promise it you’ll return
I don’t teach it to forget
I just make sure it has enough
To stay alive here in my chest

I never said it all outright
But I didn’t hide it well
I thought what I was giving you
Was clear enough to tell

When nothing came back after
I felt myself disappear
I almost stopped feeding it
Let days go by without me

I didn’t save myself
I just didn’t leave

I know I’ll never be with you
Not in this life not any way
I’m learning how to heal without
Knowing if I want to yet

I know I’ll never be with you
Not in this life not any way

I’m learning how to heal without
Letting who I was fade away

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