[EMO RAP] BLACK DAWNFALL - FIRST DRAG FEELS LIKE HOME (ASHTRAY GOSPEL)

Описание: Ashtray Gospel is a confessional told through smoke — tracing the slow burn from ritual and denial to guilt, withdrawal, and fragile survival. Across ten tracks, it follows a soul trying to feel holy while self-destructing, wrestling with faith, addiction, and the fear of sobriety. There’s no clean redemption here — just the quiet miracle of still breathing, somehow.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
[DOWNLOAD]: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fi/9f4x8m...
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
[LYRICS]:
[Intro]
Yeah
Midnight breathing in the glow
Yeah, yeah

[Chorus]
First drag feels like home, yeah, I’m finally calm
Smoke curl halos while my heart stays wrong
I only feel okay when my lungs hurt bad
Light it up like a candle for my nerves I have
First drag feels like home, like a friend I know
Every exhale swear it tells me “don’t let go”
I pray to the flame, let it burn my bones
Yeah, first drag feels like home

[Verse 1]
I been pacing the room with the blinds shut tight
Ash on my jeans, still chasing the light
Every spark like a promise I already broke
Say I’m done every morning, still married to smoke
Rituals deep, yeah I tap the pack
Three times for luck, then I never look back
Hands shaking but I call it control
Heart full of cracks but my breath feels whole
Drugs in my pocket like friends on call
They don’t judge me when I start to fall
They don’t ask why I’m dead inside
They just tell me breathe, you’ll be fine tonight

[Pre-Chorus]
Holy smoke in the dark, stained glass lungs
Confessions in the mirror, I don’t run
False calm got me wrapped in chains
Feels like peace but it feeds the pain

[Chorus]
First drag feels like home, yeah, I’m finally calm
Smoke curl halos while my heart stays wrong
I only feel okay when my lungs hurt bad
Light it up like a candle for my nerves I have
First drag feels like home, like a friend I know
Every exhale swear it tells me “don’t let go”
I pray to the flame, let it burn my bones
Yeah, first drag feels like home

[Verse 2]
Fast life, fast breath, I don’t feel slow
Heartbeat racing like it overdosed
Nicotine kiss on my broken mouth
Say it’s just a phase, but I’m locked in now
I romanticize the burn in my chest
Call it healing when it’s killing me next
I like how it hurts, yeah, that’s the lie
Pain feels honest when I’m too numb to cry
I light up to focus, I light up to sleep
I light up to bury what’s haunting me
Say I’m in control, yeah I say it again
But I count my peace by the pack I spend

[Pre-Chorus]
Every spark got a hold on me
Every breath feel like holy sleep
I know it’s fake but it feels so real
I kneel to the flame just to feel something

[Chorus]
First drag feels like home, yeah, I’m finally calm
Smoke curl halos while my heart stays wrong
I only feel okay when my lungs hurt bad
Light it up like a candle for my nerves I have
First drag feels like home, like a friend I know
Every exhale swear it tells me “don’t let go”
I pray to the flame, let it burn my bones
Yeah, first drag feels like home

[Bridge]
If peace is poison, I sip it slow
If love is fire, I’m too close
I know this comfort’s counterfeit
But it’s the only calm I get
Tell myself I can quit anytime
Still shaking when I cross that line
False calm, yeah it keeps me warm
Till the cold come back at dawn

[Final Chorus / Outro]
First drag feels like home, now I’m scared to leave
Every breath feels like it’s saving me
I only feel okay when my lungs hurt bad
Light it up like a candle for the nerves I have
First drag feels like home, yeah it calls my name
I’m in love with the ritual, married to the pain
When the flame burns out and I’m all alone
I’ll still miss the way it felt like home
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
[Merging my writen lyrics with the vocals and instrumentals made with AI creativity :)]
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
[DISCLAIMER: NOTHING RELEASED HERE IS COMMERCIALIZED. EVERYTHING IS MADE FOR FUN AND FOR OUR EARS TO ENJOY. PLEASE DO NOT COMMERCIALIZE 100% AI-MADE CONTENT].
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
#emorap #emotionalrap #alternativehiphop #darktrap #southerntrap #melancholic #addiction #mentalhealth #confessional #gritty #atmospheric #latenight #introspective #undergroundhiphop