hourglass

Описание: there's three entire voice cracks in this but i CANNOT record this thing again, i'm so sorry.
honestly this is one of my favourite songs i've written. it's really heavily based on vanitas from the case study of vanitas, and the rest is just projection. i wrote it something around a year ago as an attempt to kinda play around with different themes surrounding death, and i'm glad i tweaked some lines that bugged me.


LYRICS

a time where i could float again
it's been too long since i've felt like i'm where i should be
i'll play along the same as i've always been
but don't hold your breath
don't hold your breath

this candle of mine won't flicker on
i try to stay withdrawn, though you ever lay your hope in me
i'd give it all to see another dawn
i'll hold my breath for now
i'll hold my breath

my lovers always told me to seize the day
though each flower is someday to wilt
my friends have always told me i'm here to stay
wherever i'm to hide this
i'll never find the life i longed for
i never wanted wings in the first place
how do i break this hourglass?

whispering these words won't make them easier to bear
it's time for me to repay that favour to you
someone like me isn't meant for you
this agony i've held still lingers, but i can't find where
i hope i can keep it locked up there
cause it wouldn't be fair to you
if i could go on, all i'd want is to push you away
no, i'm meant to fly away someday
i wish i could hate you

i hope that i could leave my mark
am i meant to leave it here, with the ones i'd sworn to never love?
there won't be any smoke if there's never a spark
i don't want this to end just yet
no, i don't want this to end just yet

my lovers always told me to seize the day
though each flower is someday to wilt
my friends have always told me i'm here to stay
wherever i'm to hide this
i'll never find the life i longed for
i never wanted wings in the first place
how do i break this hourglass?