safe and sound // ✘

Описание: Mulder and Scully,
their relationship is this turbulent force- sometimes healing, sometimes destructive, sometimes both but always more powerful than they are. They can't dictate rules for it because they are caught up in it- Its the kind of relationship there IS NO 'moving on' from but hehe, funny that they thought they could try ;)

There is no such thing as 'being safe' in this world and there is no keeping someone safe- allowing yourself to love someone is to risk the pain of losing them and Scully has ALWAYS had trouble with this... She tries to manage/mitigate her emotions as logically as she does her worldview but of course it doesnt work-
i think its the real reason she gave up William and why she feels this horrible suffocating guilt now- she couldn't manage her fears and let them make that decision for her. Now there is a price to pay for it.
she can't even meet Mulders eyes when she talks about it.
now they both are quite literally haunted people- but maybe esp scully who sees William everywhere and it informs her every day life- from her work at the hospital, etc.


Can we talk about the daydream sequences? Mulder's contained all his idealism and dreamer nature- Scullys was more grounded but both were clearly a distortion - you could see how they captured the image of each other within their imaginings of William but were otherwise not in each others dreams themselves. well, it ripped my heart right out.
'home again' intensified everything even more with the ideas of what motherhood is and what really was really lost...what I found most painful was seeing that Scully feels that she wanted William 'so bad' that she 'willed' him into existence (Will-iam?...) only to lose control over the creation when it became its own life with its own direction...one that she feared. so powerful and perfect and heartbreaking, and a massive commentary on being a parent in general.