I don't know what I am doing with my life

Описание: I didn’t make this video because I had answers.
I made it because I don’t.
I started studying computer science, started uploading to YouTube, started changing my life because I thought movement would eventually lead to clarity. Instead, I keep running into the same wall: confusion about direction, doubt about progress, and questions that don’t come with deadlines or solutions.
This video is part personal diary, part sanity check, part existential ramble. It’s about creating consistently without knowing where it leads, comparing yourself to others online, insecurity, success fantasies, faith, doubt, and the strange tension between loving the process but not knowing the destination.
If you’re also figuring things out in real time — welcome.
This channel isn’t about having it all together. It’s about being honest while you don’t.
Thanks for being here.
0:00 – This video was hard to make
0:09 – Trying to change the direction of my life
0:22 – When change doesn’t seem to work
0:34 – I don’t know what I’m doing
0:58 – Life doesn’t come with answers like assignments
1:21 – It’s just me versus the world
1:34 – Chasing reaction content and quick wins
2:00 – When your channel reflects who you are
2:20 – Consistency without clarity
2:33 – Insecurity and being on the internet
3:11 – Comparing myself to other creators
3:40 – What success actually costs
4:00 – Money doesn’t solve existential questions
4:26 – Why I still love uploading
4:55 – Enjoying the process but fearing the future
5:18 – Confusion, doubt, and questions without answers
5:30 – YouTube as a personal diary
6:03 – Feeling stuck and not knowing how to move
6:13 – Faith, prayer, and unanswered expectations
6:35 – Figuring things out as you go
6:48 – Thanks for watching
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