Grief Keeps Chasing Me

Описание: A poem I wrote about my stance on loving, although I've not yet found the one to love :

400. Her In The Future

She is the one I've not yet found
But in the absence of her name
I'll write of our future

She is the gale stealing ashes from my tray
Telling me she doesn't like seeing me hurt myself this way
A soft, whispered voice
Kinder than any morning alarm

She is the blissful whiff
I get after perfurming my body
Counting tales of her childhood
Though hard, still beautiful

She made me into shambles
Not to be rebuilt but reminded
That there was no living before her
Before her hands reached my wounded cheeks

She is the lipbalm on my winter lips
Making sure that I'll be alright
For the harsher days to come
And forget my sorrows

She is the sunrise I stayed up for
Late to the party
But so full of colours
Even life wants to be like her

She is the winding willow
By the lake in the park I grew up near
The one under which I hid
Among birds and shrubberies

I cannot come to explain how she did all this
All this living, so elegant
Only caring for others to live with her
Forgetting her own sleep in the ordeal

Without her I feel orphan
Cry me a river so I can be your ocean, she utters
Bear me not holy, but my tears you carry
In jars for which I care nary

She is life I fear living
Crossing busy streets with her hands--
So tightly held in mine, I could steal her whole
The only one completing my body

And she is the home I fear leaving
Never having had a place to call home
Only apartments, houses and sheds
Made with bones brittle enough to break

She is the easel I need not fix
To paint all our memories
Lived slowly like water droping from the tap
Or the landscapes I fear forgetting

As, you know, I've had trouble with my memory
But her I cannot forget her
She draws every last breath from my chest
Plucking my ribs like petals from flower heads

She is the soft days giving me rest
When she whispers that it'll be alright
That we can just stay in bed longer
And the day can wait for us

She is the gardener caring for flowerbeds
In this mansion I carved into my heart
For her to stay safe
And away from the dreaded lonely

She is the kind apricity
That takes you whole on boring Uni days
Telling you it was perhaps worth going
Just to share this intimacy with the Sun

She is holding me for the time of a bedtime story
Bringing me half-asleep from the backseat
So I won't dream of not dreaming her
She is the only one allowing me to sleep

She is the same as these songs I adore
Looped 'till my wit's end and evermore
Of which I know no lyrics
But somehow mimic the melodies

Oh I think I'm in love
Or at least that I'll be in love
Not with humans but deities
The one passing your gaze
On metro platforms, hiding from hail

I'll take care of her
Moon water and sunlit windowsill
I want to see her bloom in Spring
Green in Summer, gold in Autumn
And loving in the dead of Winter

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Well hiya folks,

It's finally here ! The first album of the year, 'In Tenderness, I Rust'.
I could not be happier sharing this with all of you. It's another evolution of my music, more structured but also more experimental.

The entire album, as always, is a self portrait. Which tries to show how it is sinking before helpless eyes. How I hardly fight my battles, and so scarcely win. But finding comfort in love and tenderness, as they are incredibly important in our world methinks.

I hope you will like it, as much as I liked making it. I did everything by myself, composing, taking the photographs, editing on my cellphone from a decade ago. It's so hard to keep up with all of it but worth it in the end.

Music is a kind of life. A beautiful one must I add.
Thank you all so much for your continuous support over the years. In May, it will be 6 years since I started this whole Symbiose ordeal. And in 6 years so much has happened, and changed. All thanks to you.
Now onwards to 6 more years, with, I hope, you by my side.


I give you my most solemn love,
Kindly now

Symbiose

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Stuff used here :
Instrument(s) : Yamaha YDP144
Recording applications : Yamaha Smart Pianist + Garageband

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Under my very new and own label Omosis Of Nights

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