daily drawing practice | 111 | im such a chud

Описание: this video was recorded around christmas, i might have surpassed my previous procrascination record. not something to be happy about. im drunk.

around that time i had a great time. we had a first real christmas dinner, and we had some actual fun as a family. i will never forget that christmas where i was so glad that my entire family was together.

right now i still wanna kill myself tho, dont worry. i still got it in me. i wont do it yknow! but i feel like the world would be a better place without me. i dont really do anything but cause trouble and consume. im gonna write something down, ill recognize the real meaning, so i wont ever forget.

after the evening of big M's house, u went out with lil n in the city, and was just causing trouble all night. dont ever forget that, and you deserve nothing good.

to whoever still watches this pessimism filled channel, please stop. nothing good comes out of this bullshit place, bullshit website. i dont feel fulfillment, and never will. im a disgusting incel, with an acne-scars-filled face and no one will love me ever. i dont do anything and i should die. when a truck heads straight for me, i hope i will feel as relaxed as when i degrade myself right before bed, reminding myself of every single bad thing i have ever done, in order to keep myself in check.

goodnight, and be better than me. not that its hard or smth