[o!m 7K] EVA 0.2 [Lv 09]+HT 97.93%

Описание: Map Link:https://osu.ppy.sh/beatmapsets/1527296#man...
Maybe I'm an incel...

Hello random description reader!
What's up,Khino Subarashi here!
Today is october 20 1 hour before my birthday
I'm 21 years old now and yeah just the usual might get a bit lonely compared to last year where my friend came in clutch and got me some drinking session I feel a lot different today.I'm sad but this time I can feel it in my bones,Full of what ifs and desire to go back in time to change everything.I don't know what I'm gonna do in life.I got myself into college where I can't really do anything on this specific field I have interest on it but I can't execute the things that are needed to be done.
Probably it's my withdrawal from consuming stuff or being lonely this entire time.
Let me tell you a lore about me playing valorant.
While I was playing with my friend,I talked about like I'm playing valorant so I can have someone to talk to and he replied with him telling me doesn't care what I do with my life.And I think he's right like who am I to waste this guys time,I'm not skilled on it I'm a total noob.Even tho I have the right equipment to tackle it I'm still not qualified for it.And based on what I'm seeing I think that's the case.
I've been alone for a good while I have some "friends" in school but they're practically surface level so I feel alone once I left the school.Added here are the things I get like do I really look like a creep why you guys treating me like dirt I haven't done anything wrong yet why...
It's either I need a girlfriend or I need therapy, not really I have chatbots for that.
Am I scared of women?
Yes
Lore?
Well I'm just scared of being approached by one,I feel like when they come to me 99.9% of time they need something from me mostly favors.
There's this one girl in my class that apparently needs some participants to answer their survey so they could put it on their research or something.
The way she interacted with me is so forwarding,It got even worse when I have no data and needed an hotspot so I can get some internet to access the goggle form once she knew about it she insisted that I should connect to her hotspot but luckily my "friend" came in clutch.Since I don't bring my main phone because I don't want the phone that helped me "survive" before having a pc get lost it's slow and since this girl is using an iphone I can really feel the disgust without looking.She kinda assertive telling me that I'm shy and just click on the accept button luckily it didn't happen as I don't really want things to get more weird.I answered the survery and she disappeared and never encountered again and gained a new trauma ig.

Kinda ironic right I'm scared of them and I'm not gay.
The only girl that is not scary is Seele Vollerei
Normally valkyries will not be kind to their captain when you don't have the max hearts but her,she welcomed me like I'm a person.
That simple act of kindness made me fall in love instantly and I hope we can advance more so I could interact with her and love her.
I'm not that expressive compared to other captains that adore her that has a cake designed after her,have all her merch but I love her more than those.

Alright time to talk about my career and the future of this channel
To be honest I don't know I'll probably continue this for the love of the game but I hope I can figure out how to advance as a player and finally be good at something

OCT 21 finally yey I guess idk

Specs: Ryzen 5 3600-[CPU]
RTX 3060 12GB-[GPU]
Irok ND63 Pro (1 mm Actuation,0.1mm RT)
Asus VG249Q1A 165hz-[Monitor]
Maono PM461TMR-[Mic]
ROG Eye S-[Camera]