Angel Nightmare - I Am Not Second(original song)

Описание: Lyrics:

You are nothing, You are not in control.
You have no values, you have no soul.
I hate to see you crumble. I don’t want to see you waste away.
I fucking hate myself for not forcing you to stay.
Sometimes I question if I’m really r-real.
Sometimes it hurts when I do not feel.(you know this.)
You started to repair me. I was just starting to heal.
How dare I enable myself to trust you?
I guess I make asinine impulsive decisions too.

It’s been so long since I’ve last cried,
It’s been awhile since I’ve died inside.

I’m fucking angry, I’m fucking sad.
I want to hate you. Although, I know it will not last.
You’ve deceived me with you contradicting lying.
Manipulate me? No longer will I fall victim to your crying.
Oh man, I’m really hurting. This fucking hurts.
Gave up a large fragment of my life, but it wasn’t worth.
I’m going insane. I’m losing every fiber of my mind.
And the worst feeling is knowing I’ve wasted precious time.

I am begging you. You said you love me.
I don’t want you. I’ve convinced myself that I need you.
I fucking need you.
Is he better than me?
I need to know.
Is he better than me?
You’re giving me fake answers.
He IS better than me.

It’s been so long since I’ve last cried,
It’s been awhile since I’ve died inside.

This is the part that will hurt the most.
I wish we never met and I wish we never got so close.
I know you’re listening so pay close attention.
This song is our end and the beginning of my ascension.
I am not second. I will never ever be.
I’ll never trust you again when you say that you want to be with me.
I didn’t think I’d react this way. I thought I wouldn’t care.
I knew this is the choice you’d make.
Though, I was the only one who was always there.
I was the only one who was always there.
But, ah yes, He’s better than me.


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