“I Want To Be More Loving To Myself” A Poetic Video Diary 🖊️LA Aug 25-Jan 26🫶🏽

Описание: From the people I met, the food I ate/made, the dance events I went to, the music I found/ listened to, the places I’ve been, it all changed me so deeply in such a way that is poetic, and not everything is included in this video. When I was taking the videos shown, I was in a lot of pain, sometimes immense joy, or intense numbness trying to escape from the feelings that came with finding myself and doing some of the hardest self work I’ve ever done on myself, alone. No one’s seen the darkest and deepest of moments I’ve endured, but I make this video in celebration and absolute awe and pride of my strength, determination, perseverance, alchemy, and love for not only expressing myself continuously, unsurely, fearfully, but still finding a reason to get up everyday when I could’ve just ended it. It’s easier right?

But the only thing that kept me going was that there was something much greater, more beautiful, & impactful on the other side of this battle that I’ve never understood but I’ve seen it in my visions. I had to learn to not allow my emotions to affect the par of the course and ofc I was not perfect, but still I tried, and got up again, and again, and said “I love myself enough to ensure I will have a good day today, do better than yesterday, and I know I’m not where I want to be, but I have to continue to feed the seeds that have been planted because one day they will become majestic trees, and that takes time. I’ll allow myself to take my time and look messy right now too, and that’s OK.” I became my BFF that I never had in LA, and I will be forever grateful for this crazy ass city giving me that opportunity. I know now that we own nothing in this world. Life will continue the cycle, you will be pushed to start over again & again just when you think you were “starting to figure it out”, to move forward and do it differently.

Allow yourself to experience things in this life that seem crazy, have discernment and ponder the risks in each choice, but put your intuition, souls desire, and divine plan into everything you do. The universe will provide when it is time for YOU to receive. Works AND faith. I love you, and I hope you enjoy this video my lovely angels and starseeds 😘🫶🏽✨ #shortdocumentary #art #poetry #life #travel #memories