MINDWAVE Demo: Daily Starlight - Standard (Day 349)

Описание: day three hundred and fourty nine

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sorry my head really hurts ill change the description and other stuff later, im sorry if some of you were waiting for the thumbnail today

quick vent that i'll probably delete by tomorrow, i honestly feel like a horrible person but at the same time i don't want to change, am i really that pathetic that i don't even want to be better?? or am i just that dissociated from the world that i don't even want to try to do anything anymore??? life is so complicated i'm surprised that i'm even holding up somehow, though i already feel completely lost again, is my main goal actually my main goal? or am i just making excuses to have something to keep going for just a little longer? why do i even bother doing anything at this point, i just want to rot somewhere like the trash i am, i don't deserve anything and i don't deserve to live at all, if only i could snap back to reality, but this other side of mine keeps being so childish and refuse to do anything important for my life, i'm sick of living like this, i genuinely just want to disappear.

hopefully, i'll wake up from this nightmare someday, and fix everything, or maybe, it'll stay this way, forever, being delusional and not caring about the real world, who cares, i'm just a nobody after all.