Stefan&Caroline • What Have I Done

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"I never thought I needed saving, I was right where I should be / Good God I know it's dangerous, but it's you that I need..."

I swore years ago that I'd never watch TVD. I watched the pilot and hated it (because I though they were trying too hard to be BTVS and what can I say? I'm a loyal girl). And THEN Corona happened and amongst the disgusting number of entire seasons of televisions I have finished, all 8 seasons of TVD were accomplished in like - 2 weeks - and I spent the entire time seeing red, screaming at my television from the rage, and 8 seasons later I genuinely think I need therapy.

Stefan Salvatore immediately became the only character I cared about on this show. His happiness was ALL I cared about, and the way I felt about his love interests were based on his happiness. ITS ALL I EVER WANTED.
TBH, if you know me, Im a sucker for a destined/written in the stars/epic love story. It's like an actual drug to me. But my GOD did I hate Elena. I liked her enough while they were together, thus me loving them. Also, HIS FACE? THE WHOLE TIME? THOSE TEARS? GOD, KILL ME.

LONG STORY SHORT, Caroline ELIZABETH Forbes is an Angel Baby who always knew Stefan's worth. And whether you like them together or not, I hope you can at least appreciate that this relationship was real and a long time coming; good god I have never seen a more impressive slow burn to an actually beautiful relationship. Was it the epic epic love I am a sucker for? Not necessarily. Did I SCREAM like a teenage girl at a backstreet boys concert when I saw the ring box in the drawer? ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY. Did I shed tears during that wedding? Hell yes. Did I SOB HYSTERICALLY WHEN CAROLINE SAID "DONT MAKE ME LEAVE YOU" AND THEN THROUGH THE REST OF THAT GOD FORSAKEN FINALE? YES. AM I STILL MAD? YES. CAN I TALK ABOUT IT? LITERALLY NEVER.

When I used to watch TVD through collab parts and clip compilations (because yes I used to cheat and watch them).,I loved Steroline back then, and I decided going into this that I would only know how I REALLY felt based on how I reacted in real time. UPDATE? I LOVE THEM. I REALLY, REALLY DO.

As if this is a shock to ANYONE, this video is for Sequoya who was there for me through every painstaking episode of this show and THEN SOME.

SEQUOYA, when I sent you the preview I had actually promised myself I wouldn't show you because I was making this video FOR YOU, but I knew that if I DID show you, there was no way I COULDN'T finish it because you knew it existed. Thank you for being there through every mental breakdown I had (and continue to still have. I would apologize, and I am sorry, but no amount of sorrys in the world can prep you for the lifetime of me bitching about this show that you will inevitably have to listen to). OVER TEN YEARS LATER AND YOU STILL MY GIRL. Nothing makes me happier than us coming full circle and talking literally every single day. I hope it's okay with you that I feel the need to share everything I'm thinking with you, because I literally don't think I can stop. I love how much you love these two, and I loved the rollercoaster you went on trying to figure out how I felt. And I will still treat you as my therapist, but honestly, I adore them. And of COURSE this is for you. I had it in my head in like, season 5, and I'm so happy it ended up working out. I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.

P.S I cannot actually remember the last time I used a whole song. I love this one SO FUCKING MUCH.

P.P.S Sequoya it breaks my heart - and when I say "breaks my heart" what I really mean is "ruins my life" - that I will probably never see a video of these two from you. I genuinely will never be okay. So thanks for that.