Dear Agonie 1917

Описание: “Liebe Agonie” (Beloved Agony) is a cry from the trenches — not just against war, but against the battle raging inside the human heart.

Set in the mud, wire, gas, and falling steel of a nameless battlefield, this song follows a soldier who was promised that war would “make him a man.” Instead, he learns how a man breaks.

There are no speeches here.
No victory parades.
No heroic illusions.

Only trembling hands digging graves in foreign soil.
Only prayers that feel like they stop halfway to heaven.
Only the haunting realization that the enemy isn’t just across the field — he’s growing within.

The chorus speaks to Agony as if it were a companion — something that kneels beside him in the smoke and cold. But beneath the despair runs something deeper: a fragile, stubborn thread of faith. Even while cursing God, he still whispers “Amen.” Even in gas-filled air and spiritual collapse, he calls the name of Jesus — not for triumph, but for transformation.

This song wrestles with:

• The lie that war creates strength
• The spiritual exhaustion of constant violence
• Survivor’s guilt and moral injury
• The internal war between hatred and mercy
• Faith that survives even when it feels thin

The turning point comes not when the battle ends — but when he lays down the weapons inside himself. Not asking for the war to disappear, but for his hatred to be taken from him.

For anyone who has ever felt frozen on their knees…
For anyone who has wrestled with faith in the middle of trauma…
For anyone fighting a war no one else can see…

You are not alone.

English Lyrics:
I have nothing left to give
Mud in my mouth, but still alive
They said war makes a man
I only learned how it breaks one
Names carved into stone and wood
No faith left, no final pride
Every prayer stops somewhere halfway
Heaven feels too far away

Pre-Chorus:
I sleep here in barbed wire
Dream of fire, wake in the night

Chorus:
Beloved Agony
Look at me
I’m freezing here
On my knees
Slowly suffering
Is this what I’m meant to be here?
Beloved Agony
In the smoke, the light fades
And I find the enemy in me

Verse 2:
Steel falls from the sky, zero hour
Time shatters, breath falls silent
In every shot I see his face
I wonder if his mother misses him
I dig my grave with trembling hands
Make a cross in foreign land
If I fall here, tell me why
Heaven stays so silent tonight

Pre-Chorus:
I curse God and beg at once
Say “Amen,” but it hurts the same

Chorus:
Beloved Agony
Let me go
I’ve carried this
For far too long
Slowly suffering
Is this what’s meant for me?
Beloved Agony
Under my skin, inside my chest
Grows the enemy I cannot release

Bridge (Collapse):
Gas in the air, the masks are heavy
Faith is thin, the heart so empty
I cry out to God and then feel shame
Say His name — still
Say His name — still

Breakdown (Faith in the Breaking):
If You are there
If You can hear
I am only afraid, nothing more
No flag, no victory
Just a soul upon its knees
Jesus, You walked through suffering
You know death, You know this time
Don’t take the war — take my hatred
Teach my heart what hope means

Final Chorus:
Beloved Agony
You do not hold me
I’m still alive
Still breathing
Slowly suffering
But I do not die alone
Beloved Agony
I lay down the weapons within me
Christ defeats the enemy in me

Outro:
I feel the cold
I feel the pain
But not alone
Not without heart
If I fall here
In this land
I fall held
By pierced hands