"If I Had My Way" | Country Song

Описание: Lyrics:
Verse 1
They closed the plant last winter morning,
Snow on the loading bay,
I came home early, boots still dirty,
With nothing good to say.
You were counting pills on the kitchen table,
Sunlight through the blinds,
Said the doctor called it “manageable,”
But I saw the fear behind your eyes.

Pre-Chorus
I told a joke, you smiled polite,
Like you didn’t want me scared,
I’d trade every damn wrong I’ve done
For one more moment unprepared.

Chorus
If I had my way, I’d carry it for you,
Every ache, every night, every day,
I’d stand between you and the truth
That stole your breath away.
If I had my way, you’d never know pain,
Never learn how brave you are,
But God don’t listen to men like me
Wishing on a falling star.

Verse 2
We learned new words in hospital halls,
Spoke softly like it helped,
I memorized the cracks in the walls
While you pretended strength for yourself.
You said, “Promise me you’ll keep on living,”
Like that was something small,
I nodded yes, but I was lying,
I didn’t know how to at all.

Pre-Chorus
Your hair came out in my shaking hands,
You laughed and said, “It’s just hair,”
I cried alone in the shower steam
So you wouldn’t have to care.

Chorus
If I had my way, I’d turn us back,
Before the white-coat names,
Before love learned the weight of time
And hope caught fire and flames.
If I had my way, I’d make you whole,
Trade my years for yours somehow,
I’d walk this world without a soul
If it meant you’re here right now.

Bridge
The night you left was quiet,
No thunder, no final sign,
Just a heart monitor going flat
At a perfectly normal time.
I kissed your forehead, warm but gone,
Said things you couldn’t hear,
Some goodbyes don’t feel like endings,
They just stretch across the years.

Chorus
If I had my way, the bed stays full,
Your shoes still by the door,
I’d wake up mad at little things
Instead of missing you more.
If I had my way, I’d break the rules,
Rewrite how this all goes,
But all I got are empty rooms
And the weight of what I know.

Outro
So I talk to you when the house is dark,
Like you’re just in the other room,
I tell you I’m trying, I’m doing my best,
Even though it feels too soon.
This life keeps going without your say,
I follow it slow and gray—
But every step I take still asks
If I had my way.