Without Killing Myself

Описание: #eyedidnotdie #alternativerock


i wake up already tired of me
mirror talks back like it hates what it sees
every thought got a knife in its grin
every win feels like letting me win

i try to be good, i try to behave
but my brain keeps digging its own little grave
i pray to the silence, it never responds
just static and ghosts and the weight of my wrongs

there’s blood in my head, i can feel it drip
every promise i make turns to sh*t on my lips
i fight myself just to get through the day
i lose every round but i still f**king stay

i tell myself lies just to sleep at night
call it coping when it’s really a fight
i numb it out slow, i don’t do it fast
i don’t wanna die, i just want a damn mask

i keep score of regrets like a broken machine
feeding guilt to the parts that are still fucking clean
i sabotage peace when it gets too close
burn down hope, yeah i roast that ghost

there’s blood in my head, i can feel it drip
every promise i make turns to sh*t on my lips
i fight myself just to get through the day
i lose every round but i still f**king stay

i’m not healed, i’m just functioning
duct-taped heart, still malfunctioning
they say “love yourself” like it’s free
but self-love feels violent to me

so i grit my teeth and i drag my feet
through another night i refuse to beat
call it strength or call it delay
i hate who i am but i’m here anyway

there’s blood in my head, i can feel it drip
every promise i make turns to sh*t on my lips
i fight myself just to get through the day
i lose every round but i still f**king stay