[English Cover] The Reason I Wanted To Die // Boku ga Shinou da to Omotta no Wa

Описание: Whew I'm a bit late with this one... so much for consistency (I'm sorry for half promising that!). This song was a recommendation from ‪@Blooper900‬ and he also was kind enough to share his English lyrics that he wrote with me. I hope that it turned out okay!!

*Credits:*
Original Artist - Mika Nakashima
Cover/visuals - me lol
Translyrics - Alb (inspired by Tenshinyan)
I also pulled inspiration for the harmony & interlude sections from here:
   • 僕が死のうと思ったのは  (The Reason I Wanted To Die) ...  

As always, I'm super happy to hear feedback whether it's positive or kindly ways that I can improve. Thanks for listening! :)

*Song Lyrics*
If I had a reason why that I want to die
It's the black tailed gulls that are squawking by the sea.
As they slowly float away, at the mercy of the waves
Peck away at my past and then they fly away.

If I had a reason why that I want to die
It's the apricot tree that blossomed on my birthday.
As I slept beneath the shade, sunlight shining through the leaves
I wondered if I would die like the bugs and turn to dust.

Mint candy, lights down by the harbor,
A rusted arch bridge, a bicycle that's been thrown away,
Standing alone by a stove at a coal station
There's nowhere that my heart can run away to!

Today and yesterday all feel the same
"If you wanna change tomorrow then change today!"
I understand, I understand, but still!

If I had a reason why that I want to die
It's this heart that feels so hollow in my chest!
So unsatisfied with life, it's the reason that I cry
Just wishing that it could feel something again.

If I had a reason why that I want to die
My shoelaces have all come undone
And I've never been that good at retying them again
My relationships with people are the same

If I had a reason why that I want to die
It's the teenager who was staring me in the eyes.
Now I'm kneeling on my bed, thinking quietly in my head
And apologizing to the person I used to be.

The light of a computer screen,
The sounds of those who live above me,
A boy in a birdcage, scared and alone,
Covering his ears so he won't hear the door

I'm fighting with an enemy I can't even see,
Alone in my room like Don Quixote,
But in the end what I'm fighting for doesn't matter

If I had a reason why that I want to die,
I was called a coldhearted person yet again.
I just wish that I were loved, it's the reason that I cry;
That I never learned the warmth of another person's touch

If I had a reason why that I want to die
When you smile, you look much too beautiful
And the reason I can't stop thinking why I want to die
Must be how I'm taking living much too seriously

If I had a reason why that I want to die
It was all because I hadn't met you yet!
If the world had people who were as kind and warm as you,
Then maybe I'd like the world just a little bit more

If the world had people who were as kind and warm as you
Maybe I can have a little more hope for this world.