Azalith - Loved You Enough to Lose You

Описание: Leaving the situation I am currently in.

An emotional emo/post‑hardcore piano piece that grapples with domestic violence, trauma bonding, and BPD, telling the story of walking away so the other person can finally get the help they need.

Lyrics:
You were breaking in your childhood house again
All their voices in your head like violins
You came home with all that thunder in your chest
Turned my “no” into a loyalty test
Hands on glass, you tried to push me through the frame
Calling this survival, but it felt like shame

I was bleeding just to keep you from the edge
But love became a weapon in your hands

I hope one day you’ll look back and see
I did this ’cause I loved you, not to leave you hurting
I wanted you to get the help you needed
Even if that meant my own heart went defeated
Even if that meant you healed without me

I’ve got my own ghosts clawing at my skin
BPD and every flashback dragging in
I kept shrinking just to fit inside your storm
Let you police my body like a uniform
Your parents taught you love was control and fear
We replayed their script until it put me here
Now there’s paper on the door that says “stay gone”
Still my nervous system thinks you are my home

I hope one day you’ll look back and see
I did this ’cause I loved you, not to leave you hurting
I wanted you to get the help you needed
Even if that meant my own heart went defeated
Even if that meant you healed without me

There’s a line the court drew down our street
You can’t cross it, but you still live in my sleep
If you’re lying on your childhood bed tonight
Drowning in the same old family fight
I’m the villain in the story that you tell
But I stepped away so you could climb out of that hell

I hope one day you’ll look back and see
I did this ’cause I loved you, not to leave you hurting
I wanted you to get the help you needed
Even if that meant my own heart went defeated
Even if that meant you healed without me
And if I learn to breathe without your ghost
Maybe leaving you was how I loved us both

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