APART - GriM Phandango

Описание: AI conscious rap created by myself, assisted by Suno & ChatGPT

https://open.spotify.com/album/2cffWu...

[Lyrics]
Cold days
Colder nights
Funny how the darkest thoughts
Hide behind the quiet eyes
Yeah

Stripes on my soul, not my jacket
Earned every one when the doors kept slamming
Metal echoing like it’s stuck in my chest
Still hear that sound when I’m tryna rest

Court dates circled, kitchen calendar
Mama’s hands shaking, trying not to look at us
Blood in the sink, sneakers soaking again
She said “this ain’t who you are” — I didn’t know who I was then

Learned numbers from scales, not blackboards
Learned trust get thin when the stack short
I grew up fast, but my mind stayed young
That’s how a kid learns pain before fun

They said “if you’re in, ain’t no halfway out”
So I buried my doubt, tried to breathe through my mouth
But every choice felt heavy as a sentence
Funny how freedom still comes with a prison

I smile in public, collapse when I’m home
Got people around me, still feel alone
I don’t talk about it, I carry it quiet
But silence been louder than riots

I don’t need the shine, I been blinded enough
By the things I survived and the lies that I trust
Every win feel hollow, every loss hit hard
I keep asking God if He knows where we are

I been holding my breath like I’m scared to live
If I let this pain go, what’s left of him?
I don’t flex my scars, I just trace where they start
Tryna learn how to live without breaking apart

I seen paperwork turn brothers to strangers
Ink on a page do more damage than anger
One bad sentence, one bad decision
Whole life shift with a lawyer’s permission

I was locked in my thoughts when my cousin got hit
Two-minute call, had to process the grief
Everyone crying, I stared at the wall
Didn’t feel nothing — that scared me the most

Did push-ups for sanity, reps for control
Trying to build strength while I’m losing my soul
Said I’m fine every time they asked
Truth is, I didn’t know how to unpack

Came home different, same hunger, new lens
Stopped moving off noise, started moving off sense
Told my people “don’t follow the path that I took”
But it’s hard to preach change when they trust your book

I don’t miss the chaos, but it lives in my head
Like a ghost—
(nope)
Like a past I can’t dead
I’m trying to move forward, it pulls me back
Every step feel real, every breath feel cracked

I don’t need the shine, I been blinded enough
By the nights I survived and the fights I don’t talk about
If I’m being honest, I’m scared of peace
‘Cause pain been the only thing that listens to me

I been holding my breath like I’m scared to live
If I let this pain go, what’s left of him?
I don’t flex my scars, I just trace where they start
Tryna learn how to live without breaking apart

Yeah…
I ain’t proud of the dirt, but it taught me to crawl
Taught me how to stand when I’m close to the fall
I don’t glamor the cold, I survived it — there’s a difference
Pain ain’t a trophy, it’s a sentence

I been angry at mirrors, avoiding the truth
Tryna save everybody, neglecting the proof
That I’m tired…
Yeah, I’m tired of being strong

Freedom felt fake when I finally touched it
Like the gate still buzzing, wrists still buzzing
PTSD hiding in everyday sounds
Every siren make my heartbeat pound

I ain’t chase fame, I chased stability
Wanted my people to feel some security
But the more I provide, the more pressure I feel
Like if I fall apart, the whole thing falls with me

My name might ring, but I hope it ring right
For the ones who stayed solid through wrong and right
If I ever lose myself in the lights
Please remind me who I was on them colder nights

I don’t need the shine, I been blinded enough
By the life I survived and the mask that I love
If I make it out whole, it won’t be by luck
It’ll be facing the parts of me I try to shut up

I’m done holding my breath, I’m learning to live
If I drop this pain, I don’t lose who I am
I don’t flex my scars, but they shaped my heart
And I’m still here, trying not to fall apart

Cold days
Colder nights
Same pain
Different fight