GXLDII TV – Lebogang [Freestyle]

Описание: "Even if you don't know him, you'll inherit your dad's demons". This week GXLDII tells the same story from 3 different perspectives. We explore the lense from all 3 characters and see how our intentions don't necessarily justify the means.

Original song:
J Cole – Javari (Unreleased)

Lyrics:
[Intro]
I hope I don't cry on this is

[Verse]
Now let me take you back to nineteen ninety-nine
Way before the music, academics and the rhymes
Way before the dinners, alcohol and all the wine
Way before the mission, it was such a simple time
My momma seventeen and she carrying a child
The very same kid his daddy momma had denied
On the seventeenth and the month is the ninth
Twilight time, he was born before the night
She said his first cry made her come back back to life
She put aside her dreams even though he gave her strife
She never thought abortion so she had to give him life
The doctor gave him to her and she looked inside his eyes
Looked up to the ceiling and she prayed he would be kind
And be the type of man she'd be proud of over time
It's January something and she going back to school
Everybody laughing 'cause the rumours they were true
They didn't kick her out even though she broke the rule
You know the Catholics had feeling like fool
She was even bothered 'cause she did it for her baby boo
If she doesn't make it then the baby boy is never full
She left him with her momma 'cause to raise him took a village too
Something that his daddy momma never did or pre-appravoed
Granny taught him lessons That would lend up in a vocal booth
My momma passed with flying even studied too
Got her first job, he was eight, looking dapper, broer
Even took him out, in the Spur, eating classy food
His momma really proud he topped the class in his little books
Everything was fine he's the only one who never knew
He only knew the hood and the hood traumatising dude
He never understood what it took coming out the womb
And when he got depressed didn't know that wounds
She was pretty sad, praying for him to the pretty moon
[Bridge]
Gimme a second

[Verse]
Now let me take you back to nineteen ninety-nine
Way before the music, academics and the rhymes
Way before the dinners, alcohol and all the wine
Way before the mission, it was such a simple time
My daddy nineteen with a lot up in his mind
He wanna love his baby and to make my mom a wife
She carrying the child that his mother denied
He really wanna fight but he didn't pick a side
And so he lost my momma 'cause his momma full of spite
She didn't want my momma but my momma was alright
And so he drank away the wine thinking he was fine
He tried to run away from himself but he couldn't hide
The very same pain at twenty oozing out
It got really bad so bad that he dropping out
He really wanna breathe but his lung full of cancer cloud
Feeling really sick smoke weed just to air it out
My daddy in his twenties really sad and he full doubt
One thing to another then he got a girl and built house
Had my little brother and they raised him as the only child
It was two oh double six and little man had a better life
My momma little child, grade 1, and no dad around
Streets were full blood but little man was just sleeping sound
My granny had to teach him how to be a man and stand his ground
All those many beatings had to teach him not to fuck around
He saw my little daddy he was 10 needle in the arm
The fact he needed proof really broke his little tender heart
Little did he know 'bout the thing I'm 'bout to talk bout
Daddy had a girl with which he cheated momma on
She was with a child and she lied saying she was pop's
And so the DNA daddy took to daddy mom
Remorse was setting in but the time was really gone
Tears were in his face 'cause I am my daddy son

[Bridge]
I will not cry no more

[Verse]
And to my lover, I'm sorry for the karma
I didn't stand beside you like my daddy did my mother
I am deeply wounded even though I seem unbothered
Who am I to love you when my spirit full of trauma
I think i need a better way to channel my emotions
Heal my inner child Stand still in the motions
'Cause even when drowning you be thinking that I'm floating
And then you get to question all my passion and devotion
You truly do inspire me, you see me as a king
But I have to say goodbye to another pretty queen
I need me this catharsis so I need to be alone
I truly truly mean it when I say you are me home
I make you feel unsafe when you feeling out of balance
And so I choose the music I retreat into my talent
I need to thank my mother for the present that is life
Thank her for her presence and to tell her that I'm fine
Show her that prayers have been working over time
I'm sorry that I stressed her, I just had to make her cry
And thank you to my father you're a blessing in disguise
Everytime we had a call my burden was so light
I've been in situations where I needed to be kind
And so I go beyond every trauma left behind

[Outro]
I will not
I will not
I will not cry no more