Room Of My Own (90s Soul Pop Jazz Fusion)

Описание: Room Of My Own (90s Soul Pop Jazz Fusion)
Created by Jocki 02/2026

There was a silence in the hallway
Louder than a slammed front door
Shadows stretching on the wallpaper
Like they’d been there all before

I learned to tiptoe round the questions
Hide my tears behind a grin
Every word felt like a warning
Every loss a quiet sin

You said, “One day you’ll understand me”
I was just a child in need
But love felt like a lesson
And I could not read

Holding back the years I never had
Packing up the dreams that felt too bad
Every “I’m doing this for you”
Cut deeper than you knew
I was just a heart inside your hands

Trying not to break beneath your plans
Searching for a place where I belong
Where I don’t have to be so strong
Holding back the years that made me wrong

You wore your worry like a uniform
Buttons tight across your chest
Thought that if you pushed me harder
I would somehow be my best

But I was drowning in the distance
Between who I am and what you see
You called it love and sacrifice
It felt like losing me

Maybe you were fighting battles
I was too young to see
But your storm became the weather
Living over me

Holding back the years I never had
Folding up the child I used to be
Every “You’ll thank me someday”
Just pushed my heart away
I was just a voice you couldn’t hear

Growing smaller every single year
Searching for a place where I belong
Where I don’t have to be so strong
Holding back the tears that turned to stone

So I’m stepping past the doorway
With a suitcase full of doubt
Not running from your memory
Just finally walking out

Maybe space will bring perspective
Maybe time will make it clear
I can love you from a distance
Without living in your fear

I’m not holding back the years no more
I’m laying down the weight I wore
All the expectations tied
To the child I kept inside
I forgive the things we couldn’t say

But I won’t let them make me stay
I’m finding who I am alone
Building skin and heart and bone
I’m not holding back the years
I’m walking forward from them now

There’s a quiet in the hallway
But it doesn’t follow me
I’m learning how to breathe
In a room of my own, finally free.

Audio by CakeWalk, Suno 5.0