Shiv – My Past Shut Up (Official Audio) | Rap Rock / Nu Metal

Описание: “My Past Shut Up” is a deeply personal track — a part of me turned into sound.

It blends rap and rock with raw emotion, telling a story about facing your past, your inner struggles, and finding strength in what once broke you.

This isn’t just music — it’s a release, a statement, and a reminder that we’re not who we used to be.

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Lyrics:

I had so many dark thoughts I deserve a life sentence for having them
I’m such a deep introvert I feel uncomfortable even alone with myself

Sorry if I skip your comments I’ve never heard more than I was nobody
So I built myself from silence from echoes telling me I’m nothing

There was a time in my life I’d play Russian roulette with my reflection
I’d keep pulling the trigger till one of us finally lost their existence

A friend told me everything’s fine but behind me they planned my funeral
So now I trust almost no one every promise just feels delusional

I’m not losing control but if I met my old bully I’d break him
All that anger still lives in me I just learned how to cage it

They say video games cause aggression that’s what they keep telling
But I’m just trying to find a place where I can hide my depression

I don’t make music just to be popular that was never my mission
I just want someone like me to believe they still have a position

I create for the ones who stayed who didn’t leave me alone
And this title is for those who already said I’m gone

They taught me words like Carpe Diem live your life in the moment
But all that stayed in my head was Memento Mori I own it

My past shut up I’m not that person now
I’ve been lost in the dark but I made it out

All the pain that I felt all the weight I carried
Turned into the strength I was never ready for

My past shut up I’m finally breathing free
I found something inside that was always in me

I won’t run I won’t hide I won’t fade away
I was broken before but I’m not today

I felt important for once when I stole money from a kid at school
But guilt kept haunting my mind for like three damn nights it grew

Maybe he was rich and that money meant nothing at all
Or maybe he needed it bad for his mom’s meds so she wouldn’t die

One time I wanted to leave say goodbye for good
Cause life never felt like it ever should

But even that moment somehow I let it slip away
Now I know it wasn’t a moment it was fate I won’t go back that way

One time I overdosed I swear I saw the face of God
I couldn’t tell if he saw a monster or just a broken man

He forgave all my sins and said he’s sorry he was gone
I tried to kneel down and pray but I never got the chance at all

Now I see what I was chasing always lived inside of me
All the noise that gave me no peace was always part of me

What kept pulling me back never let me break free
Half my life just to realize I just wanted to be me

I was beaten called names always pushed to the ground
Disrespected rejected like I didn’t belong
I was mocked humiliated always treated like trash
Manipulated isolated like I’d fade and just crash
Ignored underestimated every word like a knife
Broken down suffocated like I didn’t have a life
Abandoned betrayed every trust turned to pain
Left alone in the storm dancing out in the rain
But I’m still here yeah I didn’t fade away
All that $h!t made me who I am today
You can keep all the scars all the words that you said
That’s my past shut up it’s dead

My past shut up I’m not that person now
I’ve been lost in the dark but I made it out

All the pain that I felt all the weight I carried
Turned into the strength I was never ready for

My past shut up I’m finally breathing free
I found something inside that was always in me

I won’t run I won’t hide I won’t fade away
I was broken before but I’m not today

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