Treating My Anxiety, One Day at a Time

Описание: First day back at work after vacation.
I talk about anxiety and why I’ve started recording “secret vlogs” just for myself, as a way to process things without worrying about how it sounds in public. I reflect on being back in the classroom, why teaching feels good, and how I want to change the way I approach these daily vlogs going forward.
I also ramble a bit about indie games, especially FTL, difficulty settings, frustration, passion in game development, and why AAA games often lose their soul.
A quiet walk home, a lot on my mind, and a decision to keep things simpler.
⏱️ Chapters (FIXED & CONSISTENT)
00:00:01 – Intro, date, and recording another secret vlog
00:00:19 – Anxiety and wanting real treatment
00:01:06 – Why these vlogs have to stay private
00:01:54 – Using vlogs instead of ruminating
00:02:27 – First day back at work after vacation
00:02:53 – Teaching schedule and leaving early
00:03:18 – Random thought about renting an empty lot
00:03:42 – Why being back in the classroom feels good
00:04:06 – Feeling like the vlogs have been too boring
00:04:46 – Being more selective and allowing short vlogs
00:05:02 – Looking at selfie sticks and stabilization
00:05:25 – Love for electric cars and quiet streets
00:05:55 – Playing FTL in the morning
00:06:16 – Hard difficulty, frustration, and dialing it back
00:07:12 – Why FTL is such a special game
00:08:09 – Barking dog interruption
00:08:44 – Favorite indie games
00:09:15 – Indie passion vs AAA “suits”
00:10:14 – Heading home and ditching shower vlogs
00:10:49 – Plans for the night with Ellen
00:11:06 – Outro and signing off