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I came back with empty hands.

I thought you would look at me like I'd ruined everything. Like leaving the three of you behind was the worst thing I've ever done, but your eyes met mine and it was as if I had never left.

You looked back at me like nothing had changed. Like you had been waiting for me to return this whole time. Unwavering hope.

It scares me sometimes. The way you never seem to break. Like I'm the only one feeling like this. Like everything is just in my head and you're happy with me.

Is it really just all in my head?

I thought if I walked far enough east, I could find my family from before. Some answers I could bring back like proof that leaving was worth it. Like I hadn't made a mistake. All I found in the frozen miles were ghosts and echoes of a life I didn't recognize anymore.

And then I realized... You're my family. You, Silas, and Kai.

By the time I understood that and turned back, it was too late. The storm was already there. It always seems to follow me.

Is it in my head too?

When our paths crossed again, you reached out and I felt your hand in mine. You were warm, but not the kind you feel from a fire. A deeper warmth. A safer one. The kind that calms the storm.

You looked at me like I didn't make a mistake. Like I wasn't the mistake.

It feels like I was out in the snow. Cold. Shaking, and you put a blanket around my shoulders. Brought me inside.

I hate how much I need that. I'm sorry. I'm sorry you feel like you have to take care of me. I don't know how to live in this "after"

Is it really just me? Don't you hate me? You must feel like I'm a burden. You have to.

You never tell me what to think.
Sometimes I wish you'd tell me the truth.

Tell me I was wrong.
Tell me to leave and never come back.
Tell me anything besides "we missed you"
I don't deserve your forgiveness.

But your words hit me like sunlight on cold ice. I feel your warmth melt the frost on my heart. You speak so easily. So steady.

And it stops the screaming in my head.

How are you so hopeful?
How do I feel like this when I'm with you?

Your optimism scares me...
but...
I think... I'm starting to believe you.

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LYRICS

I came back with empty hands
And feelings I couldn't quit
The world kept breathing beyond the after
But you held hope, unwavering, I wouldn't split

I walked the frozen east like it owed me answers
Chased old ghosts through white out fractures
Every mile whispered, You're too late
Every signpost spat out dates
I returned with nothing, just a trembling frame
And you looked at me like I wasn't to blame

I don’t know how to live in the after
I only know the storm
But when our eyes meet and you reach out
I remember I am warm

You’re my anchor in the snow
The one thing time can’t take
When my thoughts start slipping sideways
And my shackles forget to break
You pull me down to here again
To breathe, to blood, to real
If I’m a ghost that learned a body
You’re the reason I can feel

We’re both missing pieces they stole before we knew
Your childhood locked behind a wall you had to fight through
My family died in quiet lines
Yours vanished into nevermind
So don’t tell me it gets better
Tell me it gets true
Tell me there’s a life that’s still ours to choose

I thought love was a fairytale
Something other kids were fed
But you say my name like it’s mine to keep
And it stops the screaming in my head

You’re my anchor in the snow
The one thing time can’t steal
When my memories start slipping sideways
And my head forgets to heal
You pull me down to us again
To light, to warmth, to feel
If I’m a ghost that learned a body
You’re the reason I feel real

I don’t need saving
I don’t want pity
I want a person that doesn’t flinch
When they see something not so pretty

You never asked me to be softer
You never asked me to be fine
You just stood there, steady
Like a lantern in cold times

I WAS MADE TO DISAPPEAR
You made me stay
I WAS MADE TO LOSE MYSELF
You said my name
IF TIME IS A KILLER
Then stand up, don’t run
If I am frozen inside
You’re a thaw from bright hot sun

You’re my anchor in the snow
My gravity, my thread
When the world goes silent white
And the past crawls from my head
You pull me down to this again
To dirt, to stand, to right
If I’m a crack in the timeline
You’re the light inside my life

We were kids without a childhood
We were names without a home
But I’m not lost when you’re beside me
I’m not drifting
I’m not alone

❄️💙🧵