[CW] Mai \ Silly Fish [SYNTHV ORIGINAL SONG]

Описание: Cw: description of violence, betrayal, unreliable narrator

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lyrics:
They catched me
For them story began
My insides were torn slowly
I cannot believe you lied
When I finally came they cried

Before I called river my home
(We were together)
I didn't know I was alone
(It could be better)
Pretty sure I could escape that,
But your eulogy were all I lived

After the mask fell off your face
I let out feelings I held
"Aren't you afraid of me?"
Darkness swallowed all I could see
Or was it me who always was drowning?
Then I felt something
"That's how you die"

Heavy mind can't solve a thing
Then why don't we open it
Take away entire world
When it's already shattered
Then open up my chest
Crush my heart and what is left

I just wanted you to see
My reflection of your needs
Maybe it's another day of grief?
Someone's hands are hiding it from me
Hey, don't you care at all?
Memories I refuse to show
So was it only for your interest?
You loved me and I was just a mess

Quiet water makes it calm
Put up a fight and lay down

I can't remember their faces
I am the one who was broken
My hopes dissolved with dirt and blood
My body was fully opened
You were fine while I was dying
Who would even think it's you
I remember only good times
My ribs scratched when people knew...

Anyway I loved you too
What was I supposed to do?
Maybe it's another day of hate?
Answer me before it's too late
I was never coming back
That's the reason I felt sad
So was it only for your interest?
I loved you and I was just a pest..?

They catched me
And this story began
My insides were not where should have been
You treated me like a child
But I guess that you were right

Story:

The river reflected the crimson-orange sky, gathering in the clouds. The girl, sitting on a small hill, was throwing stones into the water without interest. She never was good at stone skipping. And anyway, Adéle didn't really like water. Nevertheless, the sound of splashes and the warm wind were the only things she could hear now. The girl was too immersed in her thoughts. And she didn't just come here for nothing...
"He left me alone. He promised that he would come... he said that he would come out of any situation dry if it was for me... Maybe I came in vain? Should I go home?" The flow of thoughts was interrupted by the feeling of someone's hand on her face. She was closing Adéle's eyes.

... Is it you?
How did you guess, darling? Is it really that easy to read me... - the youthful voice grinned sarcastically.
I thought you left me...
I couldn't, darling.
O-ollie, maybe you'll let me go? - the young man's hands, on the contrary, only covered her face more. It became difficult to breathe.

***

Adéle screamed. Screamed that he was crazy. Screamed that she loved him. Screamed in pain. She did not understand whether this man was really capable of such an inhuman betrayal. The girl wanted to believe that it was a joke, but the force with which she was held made her doubt the ironclad arguments of the last remaining hope. He did not love her. He loved the fact that he could do whatever he wanted with her. He was not even interested in her body. Adéle was just a shell that could burst at any moment. And now, this moment has come.

Getting to the heart through the ribs is very problematic. Did this ever stop the man Adele loved? Never. She could not move from the pain while he tore her skin, muscles, bones without hesitation. Only one thing flashed through her head: "Why?".
"How are you feeling now, dear Adéle? I hope you're afraid. That's what you're supposed to feel."

***

The river reflected the black-blue sky, gathering in clouds. The young man standing by the shore threw something big and lifeless into the water without interest. As he promised, he really came out of this dry.