TAHJ: A MASTERS' COMPOSITION RECITAL | KATAHJ COPLEY

Описание: So when I was originally planning my recital, I had a concept in my mind. I originally wanted to play with the idea of colors and different hues. I had it all planned out- the color scheme and the pieces...but life took a turn.

My father- who was already sick- was in the hospital again during one of my residencies in Washington D.C. The next week he had passed away.

Our relationship had its ups and downs and turns.

I felt lost. I almost wanted to give up on the recital.

Then one day I was looking through my phone and found these old voicemails from my father- it brought back feelings I had- feelings of regret, anger and sadness.

Four years ago when I use to be in therapy, my therapist told me during an early session that sometimes it's hard to talk to people about your problems... but you can always start by seeing what's going on with yourself first. So I decided to do video diaries of where my mind was on certain days.

I decided to do one more to allow myself to figure out how to process my fathers death... and thus the concept for this was born. I took that session- along with two other sessions (both from March 7th- one from 2021 before entering UT and the other during my closing time here) and created a confessional of raw emotion, memories, and of course moments of letting go. The musical choices come from moments where I've lost myself and found myself.

​TAHJ isn't for a degree requirement. It's a way for me to cope with my father's death- to create closure from the pain.

In order to find myself I had to go back.