EclipZe - Rickety Cricket (Prod. LaurenDevilish)

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if you watch sunny you will recognize the character of Rickety Cricket the character D makes him fall in love over and over again and then leads him to do things that completely destroy his humanity. i met this girl when i was a kid and we had a thing off and on for years but we were young so we never really did much but kiss. i thought about her for years after though. even writing a note for her that i kept for years. one day i had enough when another girl hurt me and i just burnt all the love letters ive ever gotten. i hung on to all of them because of the memories i guess but really it was just because i was scared to let go. flash forward about ten years later and that same girl starts hanging out with my sister and at first we dont even talk. we both had been through a lot since then anyways. she ends up confronting me after i get out of a really bad breakup my relationship lasted 6 years so i was pretty low and for a while we had a great thing. i cant get much deeper then that but i fell pretty deeply in love with her again and it didnt turn out too well.. so now here i am got my heart broken by three women in a row been with mainly 3 women for the last twelve years. and the only thing i have left is this music... so i guess its time to give it all i got. i feel really alone right now and im truly wondering if ill ever find someone who loves me the way i love them. the deepest love ive ever felt has been from God and from you guys supporting my music. i am obsessed with you all. im trying to not let my health be sacrificed because im in a very low point right now im really just trying to make it day to day... just know if you dont hear from me for a while i still care deeply about each and every one of you more than you could ever imagine and we're going to get through this covid 19 stuff... much love i hope you enjoy
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ive been tryna hold on (been tryna hold on) where did you go last night……
always felt withdrawn (always felt withdrawn) tell me everythings alright……
I’ve been falling deep.. (been falling deep) starting to feel weak again… (weak again)
Kiss me on the cheek (Kiss me on the cheek) Thats when the pain begins again… (begins again)

can’t tell if you mean what you say anyway
even admit to you that I feel afraid
now when you say I love you its just feeling fake
Never liked opening up much anyways

use to getting hurt so its really no thing new to me
ill use all of this pain to describe the situation perfectly
She ran up in my house like she just moved right in
Usually i wouldn’t flinch but I knew her back when we kids

i see reflections in the phone and hope it is a text
wondering why’d I let this happen is this all just test
Take a deep breath, try to fuckin chill
anxiety is killing me, nothings ever real

and I feel, how I felt, Why do I still hold back?
i don’t even know myself I can’t focus on these raps
bodies been dying everyday and I never let my self relax
And thats the truest words that I’ve ever said on the track

ive been tryna hold on (been tryna hold on) where did you go last night……
always felt withdrawn (always felt withdrawn) tell me everythings alright……
I’ve been falling deep.. (been falling deep) starting to feel weak again… (weak again)
Kiss me on the cheek (Kiss me on the cheek) Thats when the pain begins again… (begins again)