Scott Goolsby - Radiance of Abiding Bliss

Описание: Scott Goolsby emerges from his writing as a modern-day seeker who transforms profound personal suffering into deep spiritual insight. He candidly recounts a harrowing battle that stripped away the familiar rhythms of life. What begins as a medical ordeal gradually reveals itself as a spiritual teacher—reshaping how he relates to his body, his expectations, and the very meaning of normalcy.

“As burdensome, depressing, and annoying as it has been, CVS, Cyclic Vomiting Syndrome, has also been one of the greatest spiritual teachers I have ever had. I have learned acceptance. I have acknowledged that this is how my life is now, and, unless I want to be miserable and fight a losing battle, I must accept it.”

“I have also learned patience. I must be patient with myself and with my body. Sometimes I have to cancel plans. Both important and unimportant plans. The disease doesn’t care what they are. But it’s here and I must be with it now. The plans can either wait or go on without me.”
“In many ways, CVS has given me a lot of freedom. It has made room for and called me to fully put in to practice the spiritual teaching of Buddhism, yoga, and Advaita Vedanta that I have been studying most of my life. It has given me new respect for the body, and a much greater appreciation for good health.”

In “Encounters with Ketamine”, Scott steps into the realms of consciousness-shifting medicine. After over two decades of depression and anxiety, he embarks on six guided ketamine infusions. These sessions, he shares, are nothing short of mystical—powerful visits to a crystalline, light-infused inner landscape where suffering transforms into a celebration of joy, universal love, and the dissolution of self.

“Now, if you know me personally, you know I am a raver and that I have befriended my share of drug teachers. I also am a practicing Buddhist with years of meditation and yoga practice under my belt. Journeying to and practicing attaining different mind states in not foreign to me. I’ve dabbled with ketamine before. But I didn’t expect Ketamine Infusion Therapy to actually, for lack of a better term, take me balls to the wall tripping. Which it definitely did. It was easily the most intense drug trip I’ve ever had. It was, hands down, the most intense spiritual, self work I have ever done in my life. It was beautiful. But it was certainly extremely difficult.  I will recount the story as my mind is rebuilt and reformed in the Ketamine Field. Mind you, I am doing this as well as I can with words, there is so much that happened in the Ketamine Field that is just so profound that it can not be touched by words.”

Together, these two deeply personal accounts reveal a man who integrates suffering and healing, medicine and mysticism. Scott’s journey is both raw and luminous—showing how chronic illness and psychedelic therapy can become conduits to embodied wisdom, leading to resilience, spiritual presence, and the ongoing discovery of self beyond suffering.

In our conversation with Scott Goolsby, we explore the often-overlooked shadow side of spiritual seeking—the emotional turbulence that can arise on the path. Scott spoke candidly about the waves of depression, disillusionment, and raw vulnerability that contrast sharply with popular notions of constant peace or bliss. His journey reveals that true transformation often involves moving through darkness, not around it—and that the path to awakening is rarely linear, tidy, or without pain.




Scott Goolsby’s Website:
https://www.scottgoolsby.com

Encounters with Ketamine:
https://www.scottgoolsby.com/encounte...

Papaji’s profound teaching. “Stop the Search”
https://www.scottgoolsby.com/the-powe...

00:00:00 Introduction and Front End Teaser
00:04:31 Introducing Scott Goolsby
00:05:46 Scott’s background and upbringing
00:08:20 Scott and the Finders Course
00:11:00 Moving on from the Finders Course to his own Awakening
00:15:30 Scott’s visceral experience of bliss
00:20:09 Scott’s feeling of going Batshit with the Finders Course
00:22:15 Going deeper into the loss of everything in Scott’s world
00:25:20 With all Scott’s problems his fundamental wellbeing got deeper
00:28:35 Do you have moments when you don’t feel like gettin out of bed
00:30:43 The Aghoris sect in India
00:33:09 Scott’s private consultations
00:34:30 Is there god in your particular spiritual journey
00:37:10 Do you open up to your clients about your pain
00:40:12 Scott’s advice to spiritual seekers, “Get Your Shit Together…”
00:54:29 Scott’s depression, feeling suicidal, his experience with Ketamine Therapy
01:06:50 Final thoughts and outro