Pedestal - ADB

Описание: Third time’s the charm! I had uploaded this alongside my other two a couple weeks ago, but I realized I didn’t like my singing style + a couple lyrics in the old one. I’m doing it again because on the second attempt, over time, I felt I could do a little better singing the end.

Pedestal was probably my favorite to write so far. I was listening to the “You can be free” part in Au Pays du Cocaine by Geese and really loved that specific descent and rise — I then turned something similar into my outro/intro and built around it. I also like to think I’m inspired by “On the Run” by Electric Light Orchestra, which has a similar outro switch to fade.

Lyrics:

Keeping to myself, solitary all my life
I thought I liked it this way but something was not right

I looked toward your direction, you happened to look mine
making quick connection, it felt so divine

but I don’t think you know me, and I surely don’t know you
if I’m in your peripheral I’ll fight to stay in view

but my eyes begin to cloud, my heart begins to race
but I can’t rest now, I can’t give myself grace, because

I don’t know what to say, I don’t know what to do
hands shaking, trembling, can’t even approach you
I always thought I’d be living down on my luck
but I’ll continue to if I can’t get my courage up

I’m filled with so much doubt, such existential dread
but lately those fears have been chased out my head

by unreasonable wants, expectations set too high
if I thought I’d earn your love, I’d call it a bold-faced lie

but lately our paths have crossed, I can’t even deny
I can’t bring myself to look into your eyes

for what if I want is wrong, would you even feel the same
would my dreams be dashed, rendering me dumb and lame?


I don’t know what to think, I don’t know how to feel
is this spark tangible, is it truly real?
I always thought I’d be living down on my luck
but I’ll continue to if I can’t get my courage up


Darling I’m starved for love
bless my face with your hand
Assure me, baby, I’m enough
I’ll do the best I can
But that day ain’t coming soon
No, no, no

I don’t deserve this rush
I don’t deserve to know
I don’t think you’d choose me
I don’t think love can grow
on my burned, salted ground
no, no, no

I’ll keep my distance baby
I’ll never even take my chance
I’m simply not a man
who was built for romance
I’ll keep you in my thoughts
and put you on a pedestal