Rainbow

Описание: There was once a young man who struggled with depression. After a terrible year, with many, many painful memories and tears, he was at the end of his rope. He wrote music, but it was hardly heard. He applied for jobs, but was constantly rejected. He was heartbroken by the one he trusted and he watched as family members went in and out of the hospital. Some would not come back out. And he felt trapped. Like nobody could see him or understand him, and any attempt to help would only misunderstand what he was trying to say.

On August 12, 2025, it was raining. And the pain crept in, weighing on his mind for months at this point. He believed that his life was going to end, and decided to write his "Swan Song." The last piece of music he would write before his death. He opened up his computer, and began to write the piece, but was unable to get much further than a few measures. He eventually went upstairs to get a drink of water, and looked outside to see the rain. It was a partially cloudy kind of rain, where it was a storm earlier before. He thought about his despair, about his life, about how trapped he felt. He thought to himself, "If only God could send a rainbow right about now."

And he looked out the window, but nothing was there. And he began to head back down...

Except, he didn't commit to going back to his music right away. Instead, he chose to go outside, just in case there were a miracle out there. And so, outside the young man went.

And right there, out of view from his window, but right on the front lawn, was the rainbow. It was mostly faded at this point, but it was the most beautiful rainbow he had ever seen in his life. He broke down crying, right there.

I broke down crying, right there, on August 12, 2025, at 6:38 PM. I only know the exact time as a result of the photo that I had taken, the same one that you see before you. The most beautiful rainbow I had ever seen in my life. Not the brightest or the largest, and not the double rainbow I had seen years before. No, this rainbow was partially faded, but it taught me so much and saved my life. This was the rainbow that showed me God's love. I once felt unseen in my life, but He saw me. The rainbow reminded me that despite our failures, pain, weaknesses, God loves us all.

This rainbow, I could only see because I gave God a chance to show it to me. Had I waited any longer to go outside, I would've missed the miracle that He had right there.

While there's still pain that sleeps in my heart, I feel at peace with my lot in life. It wasn't easy, there was a great deal of hurt to work through. But with God's love, I found the strength to keep going, and learned how to live again.

I used to worry so much about the music I wrote. I used to care so deeply about making a name for myself, making music to pass down. So that I could join the ranks of the composers I would study in history and be remembered as someone who did something. But in this time of despair, I read from The Bible. Two books in particular, Proverbs and Ecclesiastes, brought wisdom that would change my life. One preached the importance of wisdom, of living a life doing right to succeed. The other taught of how meaningless the pursuit was. It told me how wrong I was, that all I did was all for nothing, that all of these efforts were useless, that would help me find peace. Because now I know, that regardless of what I create or do, my name and work will be forgotten to history in the end. As a composer, it should've crushed me, but with this knowledge I was finally free. Free to live my life, trusting in the will of God, rather than living for fame or status or any of it.

I learned that nearly nothing here on Earth truly matters. Fame, fortune, status, knowledge, beauty, none of it will last forever. Only one thing does in the end, the love of God. God is all that matters in the world. I fully believe in His love. I've seen it for myself. After all, what were the odds, that at the time I needed Him most, He shown me such a miracle? Coincidence cannot exist. Not like this.

I took this picture as a reminder of the love He had shown me, and wrote my music out in reverence for him. This piano piece holds both the pain and the love I have experienced at the time I saw this rainbow. The same rainbow that healed me, I hope will be able to heal whoever needs to see it.

I made a separate YouTube channel specifically to hold this music and story. If my name never gets attached to this piece, that's okay. I will remain anonymous, will not show myself in the comments. If this piece does ever reach the hearts of people, I do not want credit or praise. The only one who deserves it is God.

May I just leave this message with wisdom from The Bible, which carried me as I struggled through depression. May it bring you peace.

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Proverbs 3:5-6