Not That Kind of Girl

Описание: Not That Kind of Girl

She never said any of this to him.

This is tampo — the Filipino art of silent withdrawal. The hurt that doesn't get spoken. The words that stay trapped behind a smile that says "okay lang."

But alone, in the dark, she lets herself think them. To Lola. To the night. To no one.

He asked her to cut off her family. He didn't understand that the way she loves them is the way she'd love him. That utang na loob — the debt she carries — isn't a burden. It's who she is.

And if she could abandon the ones who raised her... why would he ever trust her with his name?

A song for every daughter caught between two worlds. For everyone who's ever swallowed the truth to keep the peace.

She's not that kind of girl.
But she never thought he was that kind of guy.

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Lyrics explore Filipino concepts:
Utang na loob — a life debt of gratitude that can never be fully repaid
Tampo — silent emotional withdrawal instead of confrontation
Hiya — the weight of shame and family honor

Lyrics

[Verse 1]
When we met, I asked you
Do you believe in family?
You said yes, but
Your yes and mine aren't the same
To you it's holiday dinners
You call on their birthday
To me it's utang na loob
A debt I'll never pay

[Verse 2]
My mother broke her back for me
So I could have this life
I send money home before I count what's left
And I'd do it twice
Lola prays in words you'll never learn
Three AM calls, I never let it ring
To me, it's not a burden
This is who I am

[Pre-Chorus]
So how can I make you see

[Chorus]
If I cut off the ones who raised me
I could leave you just the same
If I turn my back on family
What makes you think I'd stay
When it gets hard
When it's not new
Baby, I'm not that kind of girl
And I thought you knew

[Verse 3]
I wanted us at their table
So you could taste the food
That showed me love in action
Before I knew the word
I wanted my father to see
The man I had chosen
I wanted to make them proud
Now I don't know what to tell them

[Interlude - Tagalog]
Lola,
pasensya na
(Grandma, I'm sorry)
Mali ba ang pinili ko?
(Was my choice wrong?)
Pwede pa ba akong umuwi sa inyo?
(Can I still come home to you?)
Kahit nabigo ako?
(Even if I failed?)
Kahit ganito ang naging ako?
(Even if this is what I became?)

[Pre-Chorus]
How can I make you see

[Chorus]
If I cut off the ones who raised me
I could leave you just the same
If I turn my back on my mother
How could you trust me with your name
When it gets hard
When it's not new
Baby, I'm not that kind of girl
And I thought you knew

[Bridge]
If I go home now
I go home with shame
The girl who couldn't make it work
Who gave away her name
They'll say I should have known
or should have held on tight
That the fault is all my own
Staying here I'm disappearing
A little more each night

[Final Chorus]
If I cut off the ones who raised me
I could leave you just the same
If I abandon the people who made me
Why would you ever trust me with your name
I'm not that kind of girl
No, I'm not that kind of girl

[Outro]
But I never thought you were that kind of guy