your awful heart to song

Описание: eulogy
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sing this song that you'll never sing again
small and quietly hum it and pretend
little ghost made of pulp and lemon skin
in the year before i was born they let it into my
chest
where it nested itself in my heart
unfurled its wings and then shouted in the dark
"if you're gonna be someone, prove it right now!"
before i ignored it and let it die out

wednesday they'll claim my soul a dead man
sing funeral songs as they lay me in the sand
holding each other they'll bow their heads to pray
but, "lord please forgive us" is all that they can say

oh holy child a halo on your head
please rate your death on a scale from 1-10
pray to the saints who'll say that you're not allowed
"you have to attempt to keep living anyhow"

one day an angel will falter by your corpse
she'll grieve over someone she's never seen before
humming a prayer song that you don't deserve
she'll cry to the heavens and hope that she'll be heard

though i had cursed your name time and time again
the single thought remained with me in the very end:
if love had a face then i'd kiss it on the mouth
before i ignored it and let it die out