I Didn’t Want to Die — I Wanted Purpose

Описание: In this solo episode of Focused Conversations, I share my personal experience with suicidal ideation — from childhood moments of heaviness to adulthood seasons where life felt overwhelming and uncertain.
This conversation isn’t about shock or sensationalism. It’s about honesty, faith, purpose, and what it looks like to keep choosing life when your mind feels heavy. I talk about the quiet moments people don’t always see, the role of depression, the importance of community, and how reconnecting to purpose helped pull me back from the darkest thoughts.
If you’ve ever felt lost, numb, overwhelmed, or questioned why you’re here — this episode is for you. You are not broken. You are not alone. And your life has meaning, even when it doesn’t feel like it.
⚠️ Content Warning:
This episode discusses mental health struggles and suicidal ideation. Viewer discretion is advised.
🆘 If you or someone you know is struggling:
If you’re in the U.S., you can call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.
If you’re outside the U.S., please reach out to your local crisis line or a trusted person in your life. Help is available, and you don’t have to carry this alone.
Topics covered in this episode:
Living with suicidal ideation
Childhood and adult depression
Grief, loss, and major life transitions
Faith, purpose, and healing
Practical ways to support your mental health
Finding community and choosing life one step at a time
If this episode resonates with you, consider sharing it with someone who may need to hear it. Sometimes one honest conversation can make all the difference.
Thank you for being here. Thank you for choosing to stay.
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🎙 Focused Conversations is a podcast centered on real stories, healing, faith, and navigating life’s hardest moments with honesty and hope.