Quite damage by Austin

Описание: (about someone breaking your trust by doing something you wouldn't expect them to do. They hurt you without noticing it)

Lyrics by Austin:


I laugh a little louder than I mean to
Just so nobody asks me why I’m quiet
Funny how silence sounds like screaming
When I’m the only one inside it

I don’t remember when the air got colder
But I feel it every time you’re near
Smiles on my face like a cheap poster
Peeling from a wall I built in fear

Guess I got good at reading between lines
Too bad I only read the ones in my head
You didn’t swing, didn’t shoot, didn’t do shit
But something in me still bled

Guess that’s the trick, right?
You don’t even know what you stole
Just a little peace of my mind
Left a dent inside my soul

And maybe I’m just dramatic
Maybe I’m bored, maybe I’m numb
But my heart keeps stuttering static
Anytime your name comes up

So I’ll zip my lips, let the lie sit still
Stack these bricks on top of the pain I kill
If I talk too much, you might see through me
But if I stay quiet, I’m just “moody”

Isn’t that funny?
They call it growth when I call it runnin’

‘Cause I don’t trust the way I look at you now
Like a stranger in a familiar crowd
And you don’t see the war in my head
You only see the words I never said

So I’ll joke, I’ll laugh, I’ll play my part
Tape a smile over a fractured heart
Swear I’m okay if you ask me why
I’ve just mastered the art of the lie

I rehearse conversations that will never happen
Every version ends with me looking insane
So I swallow the truth like a bitter habit
Let it burn in my throat like cheap champagne

You didn’t break me with some big scene
No slammed doors or cinematic cries
It was subtle like a slow disease
Growing under all of my replies

Now I question every tone you use
Every pause, every half-assed “hey”
Got me overthinking stupid cues
Shit you probably forgot to say

And I hate that I’m like this
Turning shadows into ghosts
But I hate even more
How much I needed you the most

So I’ll zip my lips, let the lie sit still
Tell my mind it’s a bitter pill
If I act fine, I’ll start believing
If I stop thinking, I’ll stop grieving

Isn’t that tragic?
I’m the only one who knows what happened

‘Cause I don’t trust the way I look at you now
Like a stranger in a familiar crowd
And you don’t see the war in my head
You only see the words I never said

So I’ll joke, I’ll laugh, I’ll play my part
Tape a smile over a fractured heart
Swear I’m okay if you ask me why
I’ve just mastered the art of the lie

Maybe I’m the villain in my own damn story
Painting you in shades of grey
Maybe I’m addicted to the feeling of sorry
Letting it ruin every decent day

But if I’m honest (and I’m never honest)
I don’t wanna fix this yet
There’s comfort in the chaos
And safety in regret

So cheers to the thoughts I keep suppressed
And all the things I’ll never confess
I wear my pain like it’s fashion
Self destruction but make it subtle, make it classic

‘Cause I don’t trust the way I look at you now
Like a stranger in a familiar crowd
And you don’t see the war in my head
You only see the words I never said

So I’ll joke, I’ll laugh, I’ll play my part
Tape a smile over a fractured heart
Ask me how I am, I’ll just reply:
“I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m—”fine

…I’m just good at disappearing
While I’m standing in the room
And I don’t need you to hurt me
My mind’s already in bloom

So I’ll stay silent
And you’ll stay kind
And I’ll lose you
Only in my mind