Nickie $pitfxre - UNDER A DULL DISGUISE (Official Music Video)

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Lyrics:
Wonderin why
I had learn to thrive
under a dull disguise
Crying myself to sleep at night
Just had to keep it locked up
since the age of 5
And now I'm lookin back
Poppa playing his numbers right
Just to chase that sack
My life seeming all that great, until I’m struck with that fate
Momma in the kitchen
Whippin up that steak
While the dopeman whipping up that cake cut with poison now I’m standing at the grave reminiscing of the motherfucking early dayz
I’m wishing I wasn’t in this position my vision is tainted from losing everyone in my whole life
Picture that 20 years old

And I’m wishing I could say goodbye
There isn’t anything but pain inside
I taught myself just how to move in strides

How many times have
I been reminiscing?
My whole life been hell since I was 10
Wishing that I didn’t depend on a disguise
Let’s just pretend
Take a stroll down through my mind
How could you leave us all that night?
Now I’m contemplating my life
When Jesus cries

See the pain in my eyes each time I’m slurring
Because on a cold February morning a 15 year old kid shouldn’t have to find his mom propped up on a couch thought she was just snoring
Lost her soul when my dad left 5 years ago, all this time spent left in mourning
Suicide plenty times contemplate the many ways to fantasize
But what a waste what it would be to shoot for the stars just to fall asleep and then die
Nickie gotta make it world wide homicide on my mind can I ever see the light outside chasing highs in a basement?
Violent, suicidal thoughts my mind got me racing
Pick up the cards up 52 times never seem to get it right do it by myself
Pouring my tears out so I don’t end that fight

And I’m wishing I could say goodbye
There isn’t anything but pain inside
I taught myself just how to move in strides

How many times have
I been reminiscing?
My whole life been hell since I was 10
Wishing that I didn’t depend on a disguise
Let’s just pretend
Take a stroll down through my mind
How could you leave us all that night?
Now I’m contemplating my life
When Jesus cries

Video: John Fleischmann Media/Dalton Harp
Mix: Austin Von-Glahn
Beat: Prod SPHYNX