it’s a messed up feeling — knowing you care so much that you start preparing for the ending before

Описание: it’s a messed up feeling — knowing you care so much that you start preparing for the ending before the beginning even settles in. you notice every pause in conversation, every shift in tone, every delayed reply. not because you want to assume the worst, but because the worst has found you before. so you build these quiet backup plans in your heart, practicing how you’ll let go, how you’ll survive it, how you’ll pretend you’re fine. and it’s sad, because all you really want is someone who won’t make you feel like loving them is a countdown. someone who stays. someone who proves your fears wrong instead of confirming them. but until then, you protect yourself the only way you know how — by bracing for the goodbye long before it ever comes.