Dear forgiveness

Описание: An ongoing letter of “Dear drugs.” A song of forgiveness that doesn’t disregard the questions and the scars.
A song of vulnerability. Of past. Of trauma.
All Glory to God that I am here. All glory to ABBA that I made it through.
To forgive is to forgive like Christ, remember that my friend 💜


Lyrics -

I forgive all the times you made me wonder why,
Why you couldn’t stay —
And if I were a good girl,
Was I too good for you to even say goodbye?

For all the long nights
You made my dad drive twelve o’clock at night
Just to get his girls off the lap of a stranger’s thigh.

I forgive you.
I — I do. I do

I forgive all your dumb excuses
And the way you always tried to cover
Your drug-induced bruises,
Like I wouldn’t grow up and remember it.

I do.

I forgive all the times you held me tight
And told me we’d be together
For all Christmas nights.
We never had one.

I forgive all the times you intoxicated me
With the smell of cigarettes —
One after the other —
While I tried to put in my own hair clips.

I forgive you for that one day
You looked into my face and said I was so beautiful,
Looked just like you —
A lot like you.

You said you were coming back,
But words only go nowhere with you.

I thought, I thought, I thought.

But i forgive you, i do

I still remember looking at you…
All I saw were the scars on your face.

And i wonder,
Where’d they come from, Mom?
Where’d they come from, huh?
Where did they come from huh?

All those times you hallucinated, huh?
Thought there was something there —
But it was just the drugs huh?

But I forgive you.
I do. I do. I do. I do.

I forgive all the times you made me wonder why,
Why you couldn’t stay.
If I were a good girl —
Was I too good for you to even say goodbye?

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