What 3 Years of Celibacy Taught Me

Описание: I’ve been holding inside me so much, for over three years! Yet there is so much unsaid. Y pues que, lo dejaré ser. No amount of words can fix what happened.

I tried recording this video for over 3 hours at the park. It’s like it didn’t want me to record it, but anyway probably a lot of you couldn’t care less but I care and this is my life and I will share and produce whatever I feel like. And I think this is the healthiest thing to do for myself. I’ve endured, I’ve hoped, prayed, have done everything and now there nothing else to hold on too. Words will never be enough to describe what I had to go through to be here. I cared to much, grief is only love that has no where to go. Like I said in the video, I returned that love back to me.

I thought of sending this to him but if he cared he would’ve done something already and he doesn’t so fuck it. I might regret not speaking to him again, or not. Doesn’t fucking matter. I know what I gave, what I am worth. I might not know exactly where I am going, what I am doing but at least I have an idea.

Remember guys, actions will always account for what words don’t.

-A

Dedicated to me, the closure.