Still Standing in the Light: True Life Story of Me Sonia Kay Perkins

Описание: Still Standing in the Light: True Life Story of Me Sonia Kay Perkins I wasn’t given the safest beginning in life. Things were done to me that never should have happened. Later, I was adopted into a strict home where I learned respect and structure. My life improved. I grew up, got married, had children, and for a long while, things felt steady. Then the past came back. Not as memories you can neatly think through—but as flashbacks that crash like waterfalls. My body would freeze. Sometimes I would have seizures, sometimes anger would erupt out of nowhere, sometimes I would become a terrified child hiding in the corner. There were moments when the pain grew so loud I wanted to disappear from it. I had to step away from my life for a while and get help in a mental hospital. That choice saved me. I’m better now—but healing isn’t a straight line. I have good days and bad days. Some days I’m a capable mother, wife, and friend. Other days, touch brings memories rushing back, and I need space. Some days, I cry when life hits low. Some days I don’t want to get out of bed, brush my hair, or look in the mirror. Sometimes I cover my skin out of shame. Sometimes I take showers so hot it feels like I’m trying to wash the memories away. And still—I am here. If not for God, my family, and the friends who stood with me, I know where I would be. Instead of being lost in darkness, I am learning how to stand in the light as it pushes through heavy clouds. If you see yourself in this, please hear me: You are not weak. You are not broken. Your reactions are not failures—they are survival responses from a body that once had to endure too much. Healing takes time. Courage looks like asking for help. Strength sometimes looks like resting, setting boundaries, or surviving one more day.