Quite wars at 3am

Описание: [Verse 1]
It’s 3AM and my brain’s on fire
Scrolling through a life I don’t admire
Everybody shining on a tiny screen
I’m still here
Stuck in the in-between

I rehearse every word I never say
Pick apart the silence of the day
If I disappear
Would the world move on?
Why does that thought feel half-right
Half-wrong?

[Pre-Chorus]
I wash my hands
But I can’t rinse off the doubt
Laugh with my friends
Then go home and burn out
Is it just me
Or is everyone this loud inside?

[Chorus]
I’m fighting quiet wars at 3AM
Smiling in the light
But breaking when it’s dim
Telling everybody
“Yeah
I’m fine” again
When I’m not
When I’m not
When I’m not (oh no)
I’m scared I’ll never be the one I planned
Chasing some mirage I drew in the sand
But every time I breathe and choose to stand
I grow a little
Little more than I understand

[Verse 2]
I write goals like a list of crimes
Judge myself for wasting time
Every small mistake feels like proof
I’m the weak link holding up the roof

Carry secret pressure in my chest
Like if I stop now
I’ll lose the test
But nobody’s grading me but me
How did I get stuck in this
Endlessly?

[Pre-Chorus]
I say “next year”
Like it’s some kind of cure
“If I get there”
Then I’ll feel secure
But I’m right here
And I’m tired of hiding from my life

[Chorus]
I’m fighting quiet wars at 3AM
Smiling in the light
But breaking when it’s dim
Telling everybody
“Yeah
I’m fine” again
When I’m not
When I’m not
When I’m not (so tired)
I’m scared I’ll never be the one I planned
Chasing some mirage I drew in the sand
But every time I breathe and choose to stand
I grow a little
Little more than I understand

[Bridge]
What if being “enough” just means
Waking up
Staying kind to me?
Letting go of who I “should” have been
Making room for who I am
Right here (right here)

[Chorus]
I’m still in quiet wars at 3AM
But I’m learning how to sit with all of them
Telling someone close
“I’m not fine” for once
And it helps
Yeah it helps
Just a touch (oh yeah)
I’m scared I’ll never be the one I planned
But maybe that was never who I am
And every time I breathe and choose to stand
I grow a little
Little more than I understand
I grow a little
Little more than I understand