MMCM - The Silver Key

Описание: MMCM - The Silver Key

H.P. Lovecraft; The Silver Key
(written 1926; published 1929; Weird Tales, January 1929, pulp magazine)

Randolph Carter reaches his thirties and realizes he has lost something he once treated as natural, the ability to move freely through the vivid dreamlands of childhood. The adult world has trained him to argue, to measure, and to obey routines. To Carter, those habits feel less like maturity and more like a slow imprisonment.

He reacts by searching for escape routes that still remain respectable to adults, philosophy, science, and fashionable “rational” thought. None of it helps. The more he tries to explain wonder, the more wonder dries up. He begins to reject the voices that call his dreams childish, and he remembers that as a boy he had possessed an heirloom linked to older family tales, a silver key.

Carter returns to the countryside and to the places that once anchored his imagination. He finds the key again, wrapped and preserved, and the story treats it as both object and permission. The key opens a passage that is not a simple door. It opens time itself, loosening the grip of adulthood and letting Carter back into the earlier state of mind that made dreaming a form of travel.

The ending makes the choice irreversible. Carter’s body and identity slide backward toward childhood, and he disappears from ordinary life. The silver key becomes the instrument of his refusal to grow into a world that, to him, is a betrayal of the real.
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A clock far away.
A room that feels too small.

My days grew blunt at the edges.
The bright towns in sleep went dim.
I heard the clock speak louder than the sea,
and I forgot the paths I once walked in air.
I started fearing open doors.
I started loving locks.

Silver key, turn me back.
Open the small door.
Let wonder speak again.

A voice of blood and attic dust called my name,
a grandfather voice, steady as wood.
He named the place above the rafters,
and the thing wrapped in old cloth.
The cloth smelled of cedar boards.
The knot fought my hands.

I tried the key on ordinary latches.
It refused them without anger.
I tried it on a drawer of letters.
Nothing moved.
Then it rang once in my palm,
a small bell inside bone.

Not every lock is a lock.
Not every door is a door.

Silver key, turn me back.
Open the small door.
Let wonder speak again.

I took it to the country road of my boyhood,
to the hill with the narrow mouth of stone.
The cave knew me.
The dark remembered my hands.
My breath made little clouds.
The earth smelled of iron rain.

Silver key, turn me back.
Open the small door.
Let wonder speak again.