shadow's shade/shallow grave (unreleased) - astacia arienette

Описание: i still can't play guitar at all so ignore that lol. tis is a song i wrote like 5 years ago. one of my faves because it's so ingrained in me now but i don't think i'll ever release it :P

LYRICS:
What am I, if not a murder scene?
A mess and a legacy, that shouldn’t be seen
That should be cleaned up and hidden away
I am a shadow’s shade, I am a shallow grave
What am I, if not a passionate soul?
Passion’s only worth it if it eats you whole
What am I, if not a broken, blunt sword?
I’d be dangerous if I were less ignored
What am I, if not a youngest daughter?
I’ve been told, in my soul, that I’m just like water
But am I an ocean that extends across lands,
Or am I raindrops that fall through the cracks in hands?
And I think I identify more with the fire
That is burning at my feet and calling me a liar
I am less of an indifferent, extinguishing rain
And more of a well meaning, but scalding flame
And all the words that I try to speak
Come out as whispers or inaudible screams
For a dream that will never be within my reach
But one I will dream until the day I die
I am crying in empty hallways for someone to want me
I am a wandering ghost drifting between cars
I am an imperfection on the flesh of a celestial body
Not even the stars can cover up my scars
And I always used to want to be something special
But I'll be fine with being fine on a trivial level
I’ve been yearning for a new self since the Mourning moon
It’s always ‘it’ll all be different when the roses bloom’
But the moon is still the moon in a different phase,
And there’s plenty of room in a different place
The mind is a complex, lethal maze
And the thoughts get lost on their way to the face
Born under a waning moon
Understanding life too soon
Getting better, letting go
Clinging on to scraps of hope
But the moon is still the moon in a different phase,
And there’s plenty of room in a different place
I am fine, so don’t ask, or try to save
I am a shadow’s shade, I am a shallow grave